Not in Love

I'm in Love

Xiao Zhan pulled away from the kiss after what felt like eternity even though it couldn't be longer than couple of minutes. When he looked at Yibo, it suddenly dawned on him what they have done. He was swept away by Yibo's kindness and got carried away by his emotions. Before either of them could process what happened or talk about it, the door bell rang and Xiao Zhan jerked himself away from Yibo.

"I should get the door. That must be the food you ordered." Zhan turned to walk away when Yibo called

"Ge..."

"You.. should probably stay here Yibo.. incase someone sees you. Come inside after I close the door." with that Zhan went to open the door.

When Yibo walked back inside, Zhan was serving the food into the plates for them.

"Ge.."

"Dinner is served Yibo. Come, eat!" Xiao Zhan says keeping his eyes on the food, refusing to look at Yibo.

He's avoiding me again. Did he not like the kiss...did I cross the line?

Yibo sits down across the table and starts picking at his food. They eat in silence for five minutes when Yibo stands and walks up to Xiao Zhan. He makes Zhan stand up and face him.

"We need to talk about what happened"

"It's fine Yibo. I understand. You don't have to take it seriously. Just forget it and move on"

"What are you talking about, Ge"

"Yibo.. It was just a moment of passion. I was emotional and vulnerable and we got carried away. No need to make anything out of it. I know how you feel about me. So let's just pretend this never happened and get back to dinner. I'm starving!"

Zhan was about sit back down when Yibo dragged him into his arms.

"Ge.. it was not just a moment of passion for me. I wanted it to happen. I don't want to forget it"

Zhan breaks out of Yibo's embrace instantly.

"Are you playing with me again Bo di...It took me really long to get over you, I can't go back there again...so..please..just let me be and don't act this way from now on."

"I won't! I don't want you to get over me. I will never toy with you Zhan ge..I mean it. I will never hurt you again, please trust me."

"Yibo...what are you saying? You don't have to pity me"

"It's not pity. I really Love you ge...I have always loved you, I just didn't realize my own feelings and then I lost you by the time I figured out what my heart desires. I'm sorry I hurt you, but I can't lose you again ge...I love you...can you please take me back? I will love you for ever"

Xiao Zhan was dumbfounded. It was not a confession from Yibo rather a desperate plea to accept his feelings...One which Zhan's mind wanted to badly refuse...but his heart...his heart couldn't ask for anything more in this lifetime.. he waited so long for this that it felt unreal.. Yibo was standing in front of him.. confessing to him...he was delighted...but also confused...he was happy...but also anxious...he was excited..but also scared.

"Yibo...I..."

"Ge...don't...please don't say that you don't love me anymore. You don't have to answer me right away...you take your time and think through it...I will wait for you...as long as you need"

"Yibo!"

"Ge...let's eat now...don't ask me to leave and don't say that you don't love me. Let's just eat and you sleep on it ok. We will talk again tomorrow"