𝐓𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐅𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 (𝐓𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐔)

•8• 𝐀𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐲

"I need someone who can
Hear my voice,
Even if I'm silent."

-Unknown

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Your POV

I roll onto my side for what feels like the thousandth time tonight, I just can't seem to fall asleep. Trying not to wake Tom I sit up and check the time. It's a little past 1:00 am.

When we finished eating our ice cream we came back to the house and I stayed in Tom's room again. He had giving more of his clothes to wear and we still have a pillow divider between us.

I don't know what I'm going to do, Addison is still living at our house and I feel like I can't even go there. Tomorrow, or I guess later today, I should go back to my house and tell her to leave. It is technically my house because I lived in it on my own for a few months before she moved in with me.

I decide that instead of laying here I should get up and go get some water, so I careful lift up the covers and slip out of bed before I walk out of the room. I slowly close the door behind me.

I walk into the kitchen and turn the light on before grabbing myself a cup. Then I fill it up with water and sit at the counter. I sit there in a comfortable silence as I scroll through my phone. I know that I shouldn't read any of the texts that Adrian or Addison sent me but I can't help it, that's just how I am. I sigh and check my messages.

Addison:
Hey listen, I know what I did was wrong but how did you not see it coming? You actually thought he was into you?

Addison:
Whatever, I'm going to stay at Adrain's tomorrow so I can find an apartment or something to move out

Addison:
Hello? I'm saying I won't be back at the house and I have all my stuff packed. I don't want to see you again anyways

It's good that we won't have to see very much of each other anymore and she's willing to move out. But she's right, how did I not see this coming? Adrain was a horrible person in high school, what did I expect when I started dating him?

I put my phone down and take a sip of water. I knew I shouldn't have checked those texts, now I feel like shit.

"Hey." Tom says quietly and I jump.

"Holy shit!" I whisper-yell as I turn around to face him. He has no shirt on and is only in sweatpants, "Tom what are you doing?"

"I could ask you the same thing." He says in a raspy tired voice as he rubs his eyes.

I swallow, "I couldn't sleep." I look away from him.

The floor slightly creaks as he walks closer to me, "yeah?"

"Yeah, just too much on my mind I guess." I say as he sits down next to me.

"Oh, well I guess you have had a pretty stressful last few days."

"Yeah, I just..." I sigh, "How did I not see it coming?"

"See what coming?" He asks as he has his full attention on me now.

"That he would cheat on me, I should have known honestly. Maybe it's just like you said, I never had any luck with guys, so I trusted him just because I thought he actually liked me." I look down.

"No, no, Darling there was no way of knowing that this would happen. And don't listen to what I said, I was being an idiot and an asshole when I said that. I didn't mean any of it, I'm sorry." He says.

I look up at him, "I think that's the first time you've ever actually apologized to me for something." I laugh.

He rolls his eyes, "No it's not."

"Ok then when was the last time you apologized to me?" I ask with a smile.

"What about that one sleepover with me, you, and Haz. At Haz's old house."

"Like back in high school? What did you apologize for then?" I ask.

~Flashback~

We were in Haz's basement where he has a giant couch that we would all sleep on. It was about midnight when Haz had fallen asleep.

"Why does he always have to fall asleep first." Tom complains as he plays video games.

"Why does it matter? It's probably past his bedtime." I joke.

Tom laughs, "Because then I have to deal with you, and I'd much rather stay up till 5 am with Haz instead."

I shake my head, "Jesus Tom, why do you feel the need to always say something mean to me?" I ask, not expecting an actual answer from him.

"I don't know, it's just easy to make you mad. And um... never mind."

"...Well it's easy to make you mad too."

"Then—"

"You suck at that game." I interrupt him.

"Hey! I've literally been practicing all week!" He yells.

"Just proving my point." I say quietly but he still hears me.

"Fine, I'm sorry for saying you're annoying even though you are."

I laugh, "That doesn't count as an apology if you're still insulting me. And you're just saying that so I'll say that you don't suck at that game."

Tom looks over at me and I see the corners of his mouth turn up into a smile, but it quickly disappears. "Well Darling, I know you couldn't play any better."

~End of Flashback~

"That didn't even count as an apology!" I laugh even more as we recall the memory.

"Yeah but..." Tom tries to argue back.

"See!" I laugh even more, "You can't even think of a way to defend yourself!"

"Fine, you're right, I don't apologize to you." He close his eyes and sighs in defeat.

"I just don't get it. Why did you always treat me so terribly all those years?" I ask as I stop laughing.

He turns away from me and looks straight ahead of him. He opens his mouth for a second to say something, but he just shakes his head and looks down.

Tom's POV

How do you tell the girl that you've known for years that you have been madly in love with her the whole time?

A/N

Sorry for the short chapter, but the next chapter will be very interesting I promise. Also my updates may be a bit slower because I have recently learned about shifting and I'm trying to go to the mcu lol.

Thanks for almost 80 reads, I love you all so much!

-Catelynn