Chapter Four: James' pov 2 months later

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The last 10 minutes of any flight were always annoying. You know that you still have to wait for your bags and then you need to hail a cab. And then the hour long ride back to your house.
"So when are you gonna propose to Haley?" Tyler asks.
"I don't know. It'll be like 2 in the morning when I get there so I might wait till the morning." I say.
"Ok, just don't over do it or under do it. She's the kinda girl you should do it perfectly." I roll my eyes and pull the ring out of my pocket.
"I'll do it the way I'm gonna do it." I say.
I run into Dakota as I head up to Haley's apartment.
"Hey." I say.
"Hey. She's asleep on the couch. She just fell asleep." She says before practically running down the stairs.
"Dakota!" I call. "Don't kill him. I need him tomorrow."
"I won't. Bye James!" She says. I go inside and sure enough, Haley is on the couch. I smile and walk over to where she is. I sit on the floor by her head and kiss her gently on the forehead.
"Stop." She says, sleepily.
"Hals. Wake up." I whisper. She turns away from me, so I roll my eyes.
"James!" She gasps realizing it's me. She sits up and wraps her arms around me. "You came back early." She says, holding me tighter. She buries her head into my shoulder. Her breathing breaks so I just hold her for a while.
"What's wrong baby?" I ask after a bit.
"Nothing. What's thi...?" She asks, pulling something out of my pocket. It's the ring. I look at her and watch as she stares at the ring in awe.
"Babe, marry me? Please. I love you and I don't want to live with out you." I ask shifting so I'm on one knee.
She stares at me as I put the ring on her finger. She gets up and runs past me to her room.
"Hals!?" I shout following her. I make it to the door before she can close the door.
"No! My answer is no!" She cries. Turning away from me.
"Why?" I ask.
"Because I'm not you pure little angel anymore!" She screams, sinking down onto her floor in tears. "I never was."
"I know. Hals I know. But I love you and I don't care."
"James! You don't know! I'm broken and fucked up and you won't love me after I tell you!"
"Don't you ever say that." I say sternly.
"I was raped James." she whispers, suddenly quiet. I go to her and grab her hand. She tries to pull away, but I don't let her. I slip the ring off her finger.
She buries her head into her hands, crying. "I told you." She cries.
"Baby, I do love you. No matter what." I say, leaning my forehead against hers. She tries to push me away, but I stand my ground and hold her close to me.
"James, let me go." She says.
"No, baby. I love you. Ok and asking you once wasn't enough for me." I say, holding the ring out again as I look at her.
"What are you doing, James?" She asks.
"I'm proposing." I say, kissing her cheek lightly.
"Why?" She whispers like she's scared. I lean down and put my lips on her ear.
"Because you mean everything to me and I love you." I pause. "Plus you said no to me the first time." I say, making her laugh a little. "So, Haley Jessica Swan, will you marry me?"
"Yes." She says, watching as I slip the ring back on her finger.
"Hals I love you. Ok? Don't doubt me."
"I won't. I promise." She whispers, hugging me tightly.
"I missed you so much Haley." I say, kissing her soft lips gently.
"I missed you more." She says, before wrapping he arms around my neck. I pick her up and run my hands up her thighs and to her waist. She sucks in a sharp breath so I put my hands on her upper arms instead.
"Hey, we don't have to do this." I say, looking at her.
"No, it's ok." She says, moving my hands back to her waist.
When I don't kiss her, she looks at me.
"James, I swear I'm ok." She says, trying to get my uniform off. "Jesus Christ. How do you get this stupid thing off?" She asks, getting frustrated. "It's easier if your not on me." I say, walking to the bed and putting her down. She tries again, getting it this time.
As she pulls my under shirt off, she looks at me with something I hoped I'd never see in her eyes. A look almost every solider has when they see a bad death. She's scared. Unsure.
I move her back on my thighs and then move my hands to her knees. She puts her hands in her lap knowing that I can see right through her.
"Hals. I'm not gonna do this if you don't want to." I say.
"James, I want to. I swear." She says.
"No, your not." I sigh. "Dakota told Tyler that you were always crying at night." She look up at me.
"Y-You knew?" She asks.
"Dakota tells Tyler everything an I always find out." I say. "I got this ring after I found out. I wasn't gonna leave you. I'd never do that to you." She hugs me and hides her head into the crook of my neck.
"I'm sorry." She cries. "I should have told you the next day, but I didn't know how and I really love you and I couldn't do that to you." She says in one quick breath
"Hals, it's ok. I seriously found out like three days after it happened." I rub her back and hum in her ear.
"It's your first day back." She says.
"Don't say what you were gonna say." I say, lifting her chin so she could look at me. "I'm with you. That's more than I could ever say about any of the times I've come back. You're all I need." She shakes her head, crying again.
I sigh and lift her shirt up over her head. Next I take off her sweatpants. Then I pull off the rest of my uniform. I lie her back on the bed and sit beside her. I hold her hand and look at the scars on her arm. She tries to pull away, but I won't let her.
"James, please." She says. "Don't. I...i don't want you to." I shake my head and put my lips on the scars. I kiss them. Each of them several times. I know where she cuts. Her arms and hips. I grab her other arm and kiss those scars.
She's crying. Hard, but I can't let her go. Not now. I want her to know that she's loved. And nothing is ever going to change that.
When I finish her arms, I move her so her legs are wrapped around my body. I kiss her hips. Some of the cuts are fresh. Maybe a few days.
"Stop." She whispers, pulling her self away from me. I sigh.
"Baby, you know you're loved. Right?" I ask. She nods, wiping the tears off her face. "Come here." I pull her into me and hug her tight.
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