You have been nothing but hostile and rude since Raven and I showed up here.
We aren't here to be friends with you, Bellamy. We're friends with Octavia, who is a much better person than you.
You're not anything, okay?
So that's what she really thinks.
I don't want to listen to your stupid nicknames or sarcastic comments.
So she just decides to yell at me, after I let her move in? Doing one nice thing after treating her like crap for the past week?
It's just lies and deception. That part can't have been about me - I've been nothing but honest, that's the problem.
Of course Octavia had to be hiding away with Lincoln when this happened. Like she'd ever believe me, especially after the way I treated Clarke.
I guess I deserved everything she said. Most of it is even true. All of it. All of it is true.
I collapse onto my bed, frowning. That doesn't mean I wanted to hear it all out loud.
I grab my pillow and place it over my face. Why does she have to be right? Her, and Octavia, and Emori, and all of them. I'm a bad person.
I'm not anything.
I hear a knock at my door, and sit up, expecting it to be Octavia.
But as the door opens, I see that it's not my sister. It's Clarke. I glare at my bed sheets.
"Forget to say something the first time?" I ask. This is why she hates me.
"No, I..." Clarke stands in my doorway, and I look up at her. I'm shocked to see how red her cheeks are, shining in the light of my room. She was crying. Now I feel like an idiot. "I got in the elevator and realized I wasn't... I'm not..." She inhales shakily. "I didn't mean that stuff. I'm just upset at... other people. Not you."
I look at her for a long moment. "Okay."
"That's it?"
"You're clearly upset," I say, standing up and stretching my arms slightly. "And... you weren't entirely wrong." I sigh. "I know I'm not exactly the best person to be around."
Clarke looks at me sadly. "That's not true, Bellamy. I just..." Clarke turns around for a moment, leaning against the door frame.
"Are you okay?" I ask, concerned. "Did something happen?"
Clarke turns back around, a tear rolling down her cheek. "I'm fine," she says, her expression unreadable. I take a few steps towards her.
"Not to assume anything, but you don't look fine."
She blinks a few times, looking at the ground. "My mom went to Washington and she's living with... she's living with some man that I don't know, and she didn't tell me, and she hasn't called me, and I don't..." Clarke looks at the ceiling, blinking rapidly.
What am I supposed to say? She should talk to Raven, or Octavia, or someone who knows how to cheer her up.
"I mean, you're kind of living with a man she doesn't know," I say, laughing slightly. Clarke glares at me, but a smile is tugging at the corners of her mouth.
"I thought she trusted me more than this," Clarke says, sniffling slightly. "Maybe I should have gone with her. I'm scared she's starting this new part of her life, and now I won't be a part of it because I was too selfish to see what it meant for her."
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Us (Bellarke Fanfic)
FanfictionIn this alternate reality, Clarke and her best friend Raven are starting school at Ark High. Little do they know, their lives are about to get pretty interesting... and all it takes is one conversation with Octavia Blake to set the whole thing in mo...