Surviving: Made To Battle And Becoming Resilient

Chapter 16

I am a survivor of self harm

I used to self harm for 9 years due to the emotional pain of all the bullying I used to endure

I was hurting so bad emotionally that I didn't know how to handle my pain and I didn't know what to do

I remember feeling so depressed one day where I ended up cutting myself

I used to cut myself in areas where my scars were not viewable to anyone except for myself

I used to self harm to feel relief from all the emotional pain I was going through

I used to leave my classes because I was always feel sad I went to lunch feeling terrible where I didn't want to eat no food

Some days I skipped lunch because I didn't want to see anyone who I had difficulties with due to the bullying

I ended up getting addicted to self harming myself after doing it 3 times

I tried to talk to friends to get myself to stop and it did not help or work out at all

I ended up feeling worst than what I was it got to the point where I felt like self harming myself was the only option to deal with all of my emotional pain

I ended up having a little to some relief but not that much

The worst area where I self harmed myself was my head

After 9 years of self harming I stopped and I got back into doing my performing arts programs and I got involved in singing and songwriting

Music have helped save my life