I slowly forgave Phil, it was the middle of July when I forgave him fully. It was around midnight, Dan was surprisingly asleep. I had gotten up to get my favorite snack: popcorn and Nutella. I started this eating habit when I was around 12, that's also around when I started getting Existentialism. It sucks.
Normally, it starts with a simple question like: why am I doing [a] instead of [b]? Then, ten minutes later I'm curled up in a ball under something wondering why I existed.
I don't know what made Phil try to find me, maybe he needed something from Dan's room and saw I wasn't there, or maybe he heard the microwave going off. But he came in whisper-yelling my name.
"Gwen?" He said walking in, "Are you in here?"
I didn't feel like moving. He found me clutching onto the door of a cabinet, which he had run into.
"Gwen?" He asked softly, "Are you okay?"
I didn't answer, I really didn't feel like existing.
"Should I get Dan?" He asked.
I peered up for a second, then got back into my cabinet-clutching mode.
"I'll take that as a yes."
He rushed off to Dan's room.
A few minutes later Dan trudged in. Phil stalked at the door.
"Gwendolyn?" Dan yawned sitting in front of me and kissing my forehead, "What's wrong?"
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Dan Howell is the well known British YouTuber, danisnotonfire. He has been around for five years and has over four million subscribers. He even has his own radio show with Phil Lester (aka AmazingPhil). Gwen Archer is the energetic American YouTuber...