The other Swan

Brothers

I was holding onto him, his arms tightened around me.

"It's going to be okay Lily, I love you, I love you"

I didn't know what to think.

The words I had wanted to hear, the words I was dying to hear.

The words I would have ran half way around the world to hear just were not sinking in.

I couldn't make myself click to what Jake was saying.

I was numb, so numb I felt nothing, nothing.

NOt his arms, not his warm embrace, nothing but the tears on my cheeks.

Each one seemed to weigh a thousand pounds.

His hands caressed my arm, as he kissed my forehead.

I tried to ignore him, right now, I wanted to hurt, like I should.

Not be comforted.

I wanted to be alone.

I wanted to disintegrate.

Disintegrate.

That reminded me of the fire.

I pushed Jake away, but he didn't seem offended, because as I took off walking, he matched my steps taking my hand.

I wiped my tears, I was the strong one, Bella needed me.

I looked in the mirror in the door, practising a smile.

It wouldn't work, instead I just looked agonised.

So instead, I just tore all emotion off my face.

I was a robot.

I was no longer Lily.

I no longer had feelings.

..

Edward was sitting beside Bella, as she stared down at the table.

Her face, terrified me, and it was hard to compose myself.

thats when I realised the phone was sitting in the middle of the table and Bella, kept glancing at it.

Almost begging it too ring.

Jake pulled me out a chair beside her, I sat down, wrapping my arm around Bellas shaking shoulders.

"Bella, she's going to be fine." I whispered.

I was to scared to talk, any louder afraid my voice would crack and I would lose all composure.

Bella clung on to me.

"Lily, Lily it's my fault, I should have stayed, I should have looked after her. She was trying to cook. I should have been the one cooking." She hiccoughed.

"Bella, Hushh, it's not your fault. Not our fault. NOt our fault."

I wrapped my arm around her, tighter.

Bella shook her head, "She's going to die, going to die, die, die,die,die DIE!!" Bella sounded like a broken record.

I couldn't take it, tears rolled down my cheeks.

I turned to stare at Bella.

Taking her face in my hands lifting it so she had to look into my eyes.

She tried to look back down.

"Bella, look at me. Look at me." I  ordered.

She finaly lifted her brown eyes, full of fear, full of anger, and tears.