Few days ago i said to you, that i hate people and you asked if i hate you as well. If you want to hear the truth, there it is.
I hate you. I hate you more than anything. I hate your face, your voice, your movements, the way you speak, the way you act, the way you trying to be different around other people, i hate that you're a part of my life and i hate it, that you will still be, i hate that you making me cry, i hate that you making me sad, i hate that sometimes you make me feel like you're not that bad, i hate it when you say that you love me, i hate when you speak to me, i hate everything about you.
Why do you need to be here. Why do i have to know you. Everyone sees my sad face and miserable eyes and it's all your fault. I will always find a reason to say that anything bad, that happens is only your fault, because it is. It's also your fault, that i am who i am. It's your fault, that i'm not happy. It's your fault that i wish i wasn't born. It's your fault that i hate everyone.
You created me. You made me scared of everything. You made me a slave of my own body. You made evrything insde me. You made my toughts and you control them.
I'm scared of you and i hate you. You made that. It's your fault again. It feels like you want me to be scared of you and i'm 100% sure, that this is the truth.
Your own parents hate you as well. Pepole who are closest to you hate you. I'm sorry, but that's your fault again. You chose random people instead of us, so that's why we hate you.
I know, that it's really bad, but i wish somebody or something will kill you and you will die. Everyone wants to be far from you, but it's impossible. You're really horrible and bad person.
I know you hate me too. I know you didn't want me to be a part of your life as well and i know that you still don't want me to. I know that you regret having me in your life and that's what makes me hate you even more.
You always remind me how bad i am. You call me names. You simply hate me and the same goes to you. You always put your anger on me. You always say that it's me who is the worst. I've gone through the worst with you. I hated you from the first moment i saw you.
I'm trying to be good. I'm trying to be good in school and be good to other people, but when i'm with you, you teach me to be bad, because you're bad. You treat me bad, you treat every single person in your family bad. Only pepople you treat good are your friends and that's unfair.
Whenever you're angry, you always blame me for that. When you cry, i feel bad about all these things i've ever said you, but few moments after everything gets back to normal. You're bad again. You're not that poor anymore are you.
I know, that it's horrible to say that i wish you was dead, but i can't help it. These are just my feelings for you. You fucked your own life up and you blame other people for that. You also fucked my life up, but you'll just say that it's my fault, because i never want to help you.
I don't treat you as i should. You should be the most important person in my life, but i don't feel like it.
I don't want to speak to you. I don't give a fuck about you.
Mum i hate you, i really do.