Sad and hurt. You penned those feelings down. Put up for the world to see. Sometimes you wonder if they read it, those friends of yours, will they ever be able to recognise themselves being described from experience? Will they ever know the hurt you felt under all the crazy shows and smiles you put in front of them? You think you're broken and irreparable. Maybe someday you really do meet your true friends. The ones that don't look down on you. They will fix you up and make you all better. Happy. True smiles this time. Not just to fit in and make others happy. Just maybe.