advena | choi yeonjun

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Ding. Dong. Ding. Dong.

I snapped out of reality and fixed myself. Pull yourself together, Aeji.

Yeonjun is back in his room, resting, while I was spacing out due to his sudden news.

I reached out for the door and four boys are standing in front of me. Beomgyu is glaring at me and he immediately grabbed my wrist and took me upstairs.

Is he mad? Why is he mad?! What did I do? Oh, I forgot to give him a call.

We went to my room and he closed the door.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked in a most controlled tone.

"T-Tell you what?" Mom, I'm scared of this Beomgyu.

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"Yeonjun. His name is not Yeonjun, is it?"

My blood sugar dropped.

All I could do is face the ground. He has the right to be mad. I lied to him— to them.

"I'm sorry," I sat on the floor while my tears kept on falling. "I- "

"Enough," he ran his fingers through his head as if he had enough of me. "Stop crying. I'm sorry."

I just sobbed, trying to hold back my bawling.

He took a deep breath and crouched in front of me. "Why do you trust people so fast?" he asked with a concerned look on his face.

"I'm sorry," I can't stop saying I'm sorry what's wrong with me?!

He placed his arms around my back and pulled me in for a hug. My face buried on his chest while my tears and snot wet his tee.

"You know he can't stay," he added.

I know that. I know that more than anyone else does. But why now? Out of all times, why does it have to be now? Can't he stay a little longer? I know I sound selfish at this moment, but the days I spent with him here had already been a part of my routines.

"C-Can I talk to him?" I pleaded.

We went downstairs and the four of them are already waiting. At this point, I think Huening and Taehyun already know the whole story. They're all silent.

Beomgyu signaled the others to leave Yeonjun and I for a while, and so they did.

"Did you cry?" Yeonjun asked putting his right hand on my cheeks. Stating the obvious, I might just as well cry in front of him.

"You're not leaving, are you?" I asked him, sniffling.

He gave me a faint smile and answered, "I'm sorry." He chuckled a bit, wishing he was just joking.

"What about your key? You need it to go home, right? You still need your key, right?" Aeji what are you doing? You're making things more difficult.

"Yeah, but Soobin is here. He said he's bringing me home. I've been gone for quite a while already and if I stay any longer, I don't know if I'll still get the chance to get back."