I just looked at the floor. Yea I know Jack kissed me and I kissed him back. Why? I saw Sam and was upset. Yet when I kissed Jack I felt like there was no one else in the room with us. It was just me and him. Sam never made me feel like that.
"Wait so you kissed Nicole and she got punched?" Laura asks. Jack G nods. He was embarrassed. He shouldn't be. It was my fault. I let the kiss happen and I didn't stop it.
When we were in the middle of talking I get up and walk upstairs and outside. I couldn't take everyone yelling at each other. Laura and Jack J were getting mad at Jack G for something I didn't stop.
The night air was cool and felt nice on my burning face. I was currently wearing a pair of black spandex with a thin white shirt. The breeze rippled through my shirt as I sat down on the steps leading up to the front door. It was nice and comfy out. I hear the door close and don't bother to look and see who it is. Jack G sat down next to me and put is head in his hands.
"I'm really sorry." He says after a few minutes of silence.
"No it's not. I kissed you and you got hurt for it. It's all my fault." He says to me. I shake my head.
"It's honestly fine Jack." I say to him quietly
"Stop saying that! Nicole it's my fault that you ever got hurt. I shouldn't have kissed you. I shouldn't have became best friends with you. I shouldn't have even talked to you after you left." Jack says to me. That hurt me. Jack was my best friend. He was the only person there for me besides Nash.
"W-why do you say that?" I ask him as my voice quivers while tears drop on my cheeks.
"Because I wouldn't be having these feelings for you. Nicole you first started out as a crush and now I realized it's more than that. I'm fucking in love with you. Yes I realize we're nowhere near dating but I had to say it. I'm I love with you Nicole." He says as he looks up at me. I look down and shake my head.
"Don't say anything. Please. I just need you to know that I love you 100 percent and I will never hurt you." He says and kisses me. I pull away quickly.
"I-i can't do this." I say and quickly get up and run away. I hear Jack calling my name begging for me to come back. I couldn't. I couldn't go back. I do love Jack. I really do. As a friend of course. But his type of love for me was way different. I couldn't handle his words and emotions right now. I just broke up with Sam and he already has a new girlfriend. Shows how much he ever "loved" me.
I ran all the way back to my house. When I walk through the front door I close it behind me and lean up against it. This wasn't fair. I can't have this going on the first day I get back. It's not right. It's just not. I trudge up the stairs and to my room where I close the door and lock it.
In my room I pull out a notebook and begin writing a song.
Always in a rush
Never stay on the phone long enough
Why am I so self-important?
Said I'd see you soon
But that was, oh, maybe a year ago
Didn't know time was of essence
As I finish the song I look at it and put it away. I was going to save that song for when I need it. And I have a feeling I'm going to need it very soon.
Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've been caught up in school work and I've been having self issues so that's not helping. Buy everything is getting better so I'll keep posting. Love you guys! Don't forget to vote and follow!