Pure confusion *book 1*

chp19&20

Chp19 My3rd period eye candy

I never really paid attention to who was in my 3rd period multimedia class. I always just walked in put my backpack in side the lil cabinet then walked to my computer listened to the instructions put my earphones in and thats it. I knew like 3 of the ppl but the rest i never met before. Since im incredibly shy i was to afraid to talk to anyone. Ever since me and dylan went to diffrent schools my life seemed empty. New quarter was begining so most likely we were going to be changing seats i hoped i wasnt going to . I walked into 3rd period and sat down. My teacher said we were going to start a new program so if you didnt want to do the program then you had to sit in the back rows and the others would come up I was glad i sat in the second row so i didnt have to move but new people were going to sit by me.  

She told a guy name dan to sit by me. I looked up and saw him. He was like punk mixed with emo .He was wearing a ramones t-shirt skinny jeans and this wierd badge Shoes.There was something about him i liked he was cute too. I was glad he was going ot sit next to me. Right next to him was a guy named Sam.Me and sam use to hang out with the same people in 9th grade so i kinda knew him . 

I stared at him through the corner of my eye .He was really funny. I tried not to laugh because i didnt want him to think i was listening to his conversation.  

For months i just stared at him . I saw him come in then i would listen to his conversation. I always thought of things i wanted to say to him. One day i finished my assignment early so i took out my book and listened to korn. " Then i heard someone say i love that movie. I took off my earphones and saw that it was david who said something. he was talking about my haunting in conneticut bookmark. I said haha me too. then the bell rang deng! Ha were u scared.Umm no not really were u. ha no . then he walked away. Wow i actually had my first conversation with him. Deng i wish he hadnt have finally talked to me on the day before Xmas vacation was starting. Hmm this sux  

Chp20 Again!?!?!? This SUX!!!

Im happy its finally Winter vacation. Im tired of going to school and nothing happens. Xmas is less then a week from today. I wish Xmas was going to be good but my parents dont have much money.  

Xmas 

Suprisingly Xmas was fun I was with my bro his gf my lil bor my sis my 2 nieces and my mo we played a bunch of games and stuff opened presen the usual not many things happened  

4 days later 

Ugh me and melissa were arguing again.We argue about the same thing all the time it gets really freaken annoying. It was about Dylan again. She believes that he likes me Because the way we are with each other. He was my best friend for two years of course we are going to be real close  

Its just it was when she was last here I cant help that he's always like that.Dylan and I friendship was always flirt, ;) but i hate it and like it at the same time Well that day me and him were chasing each other up and down the street by my house and the park,so this was supposebly flirting but i didnt think so. It just the way he is. 

Well anyways me and her were arguing about that once again.Ugh.how i hate.Hearing it was like my heart being ripped out.,but hearing that from her was my heart being ripped and being stabbed in the Back!!After she promisedshe would stop she did it again.she I.M me and said  

Melissa:Hey guess what 

Me:What  

Melissa:I asked him would you ever go out with charlotte and he said yea 

that pissed me off right there 

Me:WTF?!what the hell is wrong with you 

Melissa:Ha nothing 

Me:What do you think would come out of telling m.Leave me out of anything you guys talk about!! 

Melissa:you are so dramatic  

Me:Damn Right i am"  

Melissa:Ugh whatever 

Me:Fine then you know what just f OFF i dont want to talk to you anymore. 

TEXT Convo with LUZ

Me:Ugh melissa is getting on my nerves again  

Luz:Why? what Happen 

Me:Ugh she keeps telling me that Dylan Likes me. 

Luz:O well yea i kno how annoyed you get when it comes to that. 

Me:Yup Ugh she just texted me saying dont be mad foo I wish she would leave me alone Luz: You should do some relaxing.Breathe in and out think of a waterfall  

Me:Ha that is relaxing i put on my sound soother  

Luz:Lol it actually worked ha my friend told me to shut up and that it wasnt helping.Ha lol  

me and luz talked for a lil longer and she went to bed so i was left talking to melissa XP

Me and melissa kept arguing back and forth,but in the end she apologized the last few text VVVVV 

Me:Ha you dont like it when you have someone tell u about the guy that makes your life messed up. 

Melissa:MMM..No and your rite once again .. look ima be the mature one here and grow uplifes not a gameand im FXXkn up sorry for bringing it up i kno u aint gonna forgive me me but im sorry. 

Me: yea guess ok:/ 

I am at least glad i dont have to worry about that.But i still felt bad for talking about "him" i new it would hurt her as bad as she had done to me.But i still think even tho she had it coming she didnt deserve to say that.Like one quote says dont treat others as bad as they treat you because u are just as bad as they are always be the better person .Hmm i guess i am cold hearted like i thought:(