There is a monster deep inside me,
Fighting to take control
I'm fighting a battle that will never end
The monster grows stronger, faster, and smarter.
Losing the battle, the monster takes control.
It makes me lash out at people
I say things I don't mean
It controls my every movement
I am alone in this battle with my self
The ugly beast controls me from the inside out
On the outside people say I'm beautiful
But on the inside I'm hideous
How can something so hideous, be beautiful?
I'm hideous on the inside and out
I want to change it but I can't
The monster has gotten too big and strong
No one can help me,
No one can save me from this monster I have created
I build up walls, to block people out
So they can't see this monster
People have tried to break the walls down,
None have succeed yet, some have given up
Some are still trying.