No Matter What

Episode 36

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Kambree Nixon
Age : 15
Houston , Texas

One week later...

"Ugh, I'm so stupid." I mumbled to myself staring at my reflection in the mirror.

"You're just a stupid white girl." I said squeezing my arm.

"You don't even deserve to be here, just die already." I smiled to myself.

"Just go away Kambree. Go with your mom." My mind told my heart.

"You're right." I nodded to myself.

I sighed and shook myself away from my thoughts. I felt like I was going crazy and I was so scared. It felt like my
mind was telling me to give up but my heart was just crying out for help.

I shook my head and played the song that I've been playing every since my mom was ripped away from me.

PLAY THE SONG NOW!!

I looked down at the necklace that I got off of my mom's neck that night and rubbed my thumb over it. "Where are you now?"

"Cause you're like a bullet in my heart
And it's spreading to my soul
You're like a bullet in my heart
Wont let it take control."

"Can somebody help me?
'Cause I'm not doing well
Every morning I get up
I wake up with a broken heart,
Can somebody help me?
Call 999, tell them I give up
I'm about to self destruct
If my tomorrow never comes, yeah"

I listened as the first two verses played thinking of all the competitions me and my mom attended.

I wiped the tears that fell down my face and started pinching my leg. "I need help right now."

'l wouldn't care
Lock me, throw the key away
I wouldn't care, no
Cause I've lost it all
I've lost it all
I, I've lost it all
I've lost it all, yeah'

I picked up the picture we took from the adoption day and smiled.

'Everyday is a day sooner
To when I'll see you again
And everyday is a day closer
To when you lose your treasure
Don't forget no, no'

'So if you got someone that you love
Remember to tell them
That you love them even on the bad days
Just let your love pierce through your soul
Cause in this life you just never know
When it's gonna be too late, gonna be too late'

I started singing the lyrics to myself as I hugged the picture.

'Can somebody help me?
Cause I'm not doing well
Every morning I get up
I wake up with a broken heart
Can somebody help me?
Call 999, tell them I give up
I'm about to self destruct
If my tomorrow never comes

I cried as the rest of the song played throughout the room. I really just wanted one last talk with my mom. People at school have been saying things like she wasn't even my real mom. But honestly she was, she was the one who took me in. She loved me like I was her own flesh and blood. I'll never forget her or let her down.

She's always wanted me to go to the Olympics so I was going to make sure that I did it for her.

First step was too finally open back up and start back talking. I stopped the music and sighed.

STOP THE SONG

"Bwee Bwee." Raelyn said running in the room.

I quickly wiped my tears and picked her up. It took Raelyn a good while to warm up to me but now she's used to me and she calls me Bree Bree but she pronounces it with a W.