☽ Dijour
trap • friday • 1:00 am
2/1/2022
i was up high as hell me and ren got into and arguement and I haven't talked to her since tuesday
i realized i was in the wrong but it was too late...
i was drunk but I shouldn't have said that she didn't deserve it
i been at the trap ever since just getting high drinking and doing me with the boys
but this time was different.
i sat in the living room as i stared at the table full of pills and lean and weed
i smirked as i picked up 2 percs and drunk it with some lean i then started to roll up and smoke as everybody came in from the store
"wsg" they said as i nodded and looked down onto my phone
i smoked the blunt by myself before they all started to join in and we began to get high
i went to the kitchen and grabbed some henny as i pored myself a cup and drunk it straight
as the night went on I poured and drunk cups of lean and henny it excited me at the time
took my pain away and i felt better not lonely but not sane either i craved sanity
2 hours later
dj tried to call sb to come get me and i told his bitch ass no but he still did it and went againt what i told him
after a few moments i reached up to grab some more henny and they stared at me and laughed as if i was crazy
i ignored them as i heard a knock on the door and looked over to see ren staring at me
i got up to talk to her but i could barely walk
"h-hey baby" i slurred as i grabbed her waist
"im taking him home" she said as she grabbed my hand and pulled me to the car
she handed me some water and i drunk it sooner than later i dozed off waking up in the house on the couch
i got up as i stumbled in the dark to the bathroom flicking on the light i peed flushed and pulled my pants up
going to the sink i washed my hands as i looked at myself in the mirror it wasnt me.
i turned the light and continued to roam in the dark until i got to the kitchen
i opened it grabbing a water and then going to the couch searching for my phone or the remote to get a source of light
after about 5 minutes i grabbed a phone but it wasnt mine it was ren's i turned on the flash to be met by ber asleep on another couch
i found the tv remote and checked the time and seen it was 5 am
i huffed as i sat back on the couch i started to get lost in my thoughts as the night we argued crossed my mind
flash back
serenity pov -
i was sitting on the couch wondering as to where dijour was it was late super late
i just want to know he's ok so i can stop worrying
sooner than later he walked in unannounced and trying to be quiet
he was laughing and giggling to himself which let me know he was drunk
he walked into the room and said nothing to me i followed him and started to ask him where he was
"jour where you been" i said quietly
"ooouuh ren lemme tell you bout these hoes man we was in the club rt and these bitches with the FAT ass start throwing it on meee" he said dancing around
i looked away in disturbance i had high hopes for him and he let me down i huffed lowly
"you said you weren't gonna do me wrong jour what happened" i said as he stood there
"man shut that shit up i ain yo momma go tell that bitch" he slurred "suicidal ass" he whispered
i was in shock as i started to tear up "jour get out bro" i said as he just stared at me in awe
"fuck is you looking at. walk nigga" i said as he got up slowly i walked to the living room and sat down on the couch as i waited for him
he came out and i walked him to the door and locked it i walked into the room as everything hit me
i started to cry as i layed there longer i started to feel worse about myself about my past...
flashback over
dijour pov -
i put her through so much and she was still there at my lowest point i need to do better
she deserves better which i can't provide i need to get myself together quick
i got up and carried her to the bed "baby" she whined as she sat up and rubbed her eyes
'fuck' i thought to myself as i mentally face palmed
"yes" i said lowly "cmere" she said as she layed back down and started to doze off i just went and layed with her
once she falls asleep im leaving i need to clear my head asap
i know she is gonna worry but she knows where i'll be well at least i hope so...
i stayed cuddled up with her until she eventually fell asleep i slipped out of her grasp and slowly left out the room
once i got to the living room i got my wallet, charger and a water i put on my coat and left out making sure to be quiet as possible
once i got to my car i stopped sharing a location with her and everyone else, i started up my car
i drove away fast as i could as i got onto the freeway and sped with her playlist playing lowly
everything felt so unreal i felt like it was all my fault why would i even say that when she depends on me
she never seen no wrong in me until then...
CHAPTER OVER
this was longgg overdue
i'll most likely update tmrrw
how yall feel abt dijour?
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