Give me your hand and I'll hold it (GxG)

By my side

They say home is where the heart is and my heart is with Elodie. Clarissa and Anthony had been so worried about us especially with the injuries that I had sustained. I was still so thankful for everything they had done. Elodie did not leave my side whilst I was recovering, she did everything for me.

It was Sunday morning and I knew i needed to prepare for school tomorrow. My injuries were fine enough for me to be able to go back and see all my friends which I couldn't wait for seeing as they helped save me and my sister. Now that they all knew what had happened to us, it didn't feel as much as a weight on my shoulders like it did before. Even though they didn't understand fully they understood enough.

"Come on Megan, let's go and have lunch" Elodie cooed. She walked with me down to lunch, with her arms wrapped around me. How I could get lost in those blue eyes of hers. The affect she still had on me now was immense. We sat down at the table, everyone was there and they all seemed relieved.

"I am so glad that you two are safe, we spoke to the judge this morning and all the paper work is in order as long as you are okay with it". Anthony said. They had legal paperwork that meant nobody could take us away ever. Our past was soon to be gone and our future was sealed. "As long as you don't mind us being here, we would love to make it permanent". I spoke, finally voicing my opinion for once.
"Any objections" Jessica laughed out. Everyone shook their heads at her. Clarissa clasped her hands together. "That's settled then, welcome to the family officially". I smiled so hard at this, home. The happiest place I could find myself. We all hugged, Elodie included. She had come so far, ice princess no longer. We sat down and had a wonderful lunch, everyone was doing their own thing after lunch. I helped clear all the plates away and washed up with the cleaners. After all they were family. They had told me how much they had missed me. That was heart warming. Little did I know, Elodie was hovering in the hallway, patiently waiting for me.

I walked out of the kitchen and looked up, pausing. "Waiting for someone" I chirped.
"Yes....you of course" she smiled back. Oh that smile.
She was going to walk me back to my room. "Elodie, can we go to your room?" She frowned and tilted her head at that inquisitively. She nodded her head and held her hand out to me, which I happily took. As we entered her room it was like the first time I had met her. Everything felt the same but felt so different. I hadn't been in here that often, but coming in here felt so safe. "Do you remember when I fell asleep in here the first time I met you?" I pondered. Elodie shook her head and said "yes, what an inconvenience and you had been reading my book". I giggled. "Yes, you were such a mystery then, not so much any more". I smiled. We sat down on her bed and lay back together. "It was strange having someone random girl in my bed asleep, but it was meant to be clearly" Elodie took my hand and held it in hers. It seemed she was having butterflies for once. "You look tired, have a nap. We have nothing but time".

Sleep came upon me, and into my dreams I fell. I was dreaming about stumbling across the fields with my sister on the Summertons estate. I needed to revisit there again. It was mid afternoon when I woke up and Elodie must have been doing something because she wasn't here. I got up myself and decided I needed some fresh air. I walked out the door and headed for that unfamiliar but very familiar spot where I had first crossed onto the estate. It wasn't too hard to find once I found the lake. The sky was blue and the smell of freshly cut grass enamoured me. I loved being outside, I did miss the night sky but it was always there if I ever wanted to see. I pondered over how much better I was doing in life and how safe I felt. Most importantly, I had a family and I was loved. I reached the spot my sister and I had sat. I sat down In the same spot, looking over the lake, under the tree. It was idyllic. I lay for a while, getting lost in my thoughts, feeling the breeze and soaking the sun. This was like something out of a film. I heard footsteps approaching, yet I was not alarmed.

I felt someone sit next to me, of course I knew who it had to be. It would always be that blue eyed girl who stole my heart. We never seemed to stray far from each other. "Hey" I beamed. "Hey" she softly smiled back. "How did you find me?" I asked. Elodie's eyes reached mine, searching for me. "I believe this was where you were found". She shrugged. "How did you know that?" I was puzzled. "When you arrived, I was rude and demanded to know everything when my dad took me into his office". Oh so that's what they spoke about. "And what did he tell you?" I asked apprehensively. "Nothing really, he just explained that you were staying with us and that this was where he found you guys, he also told me not to be horrible". I laughed at that last bit. It seemed as though we were having an honest conversation.

"So that's how I knew you would come back here at some point" she was so nonchalant about it. I just nodded. I let the silence fill the air because it was not awkward anymore. "I haven't been here for a long time" she blurted out. My head snapped back to her cautiously. Hesitancy filled the air. Was she finally going to tell me her story. "Did you use to come here?" I questioned. I wasn't expecting an answer and she knew that. "Yes, with my gran" she paused before continuing. "We use to walk these fields together, I know how mesmerising it is down here, but I just couldn't face it anymore". I rubbed her hand soothingly as she began to pour her heart out to me. "I know I haven't told you these things, I mean I haven't spoken to anyone about them". I moved closer to Elodie. "It's okay, take your time" I told her.
"I'm ready to tell you" she said. I just nodded, I was never going to push her.
"My gran was my world, we spent a lot of time together growing up and she would do anything for me. But I was stupid and foolish. I was away at a different school, where I lived with her. I decided to go out one night to a party, but my ride ditched and I rang my gran asking for a life." Elodie's eyes began to water. She was so fragile and I had never noticed. "I'm here for you Elodie" I told her.
"My gran being who she was said yes, and got in the car to come and get me. But she never arrived. She had a big car crash and was rushed to hospital" Elodie sobbed. "She didn't make it". I never once looked away from her. I had to be the strong one today. Elodie could depend on me and she needed to know that. "The thing was, I blamed myself for it and I still do". I hushed Elodie. "It can't of been your fault, I'm sure you loved her more than anything". I said. Elodie didn't say anything to that for a minute.

"I carry the guilt, if I hadn't of gone to that party, I would have never of called her and asked for a life". She sobbed.

"Yes but you would have never known that was going to happen". I paused. The breeze swirled all around us. We were at one with each other and nature. Just the two of us. I continued stroking her hand.

"The other thing was, she was hit by a car, that's what did the damage. The other car was being driven by some drunk idiot that had left that party". Now I could see why she carried so much guilt. I had to reassure her. It wasn't her fault, at least I didn't see it that way. She was a mess and I wanted to help her. Things were beginning to make sense as to why she acted the way she did. She took her hurt and anger out on us because she didn't know how to deal with it. It was a fairly recent occurrence.

"I know you think it's your fault but it's not and by the sounds of things your gran wouldn't want you to carry this guilt along life with you. She would want you to be happy and make the most out of things". I assured her. She looked at me, so deeply and thoughtfully. I could see it clearly now. She needed me. She depended on me. Just like the way I depended on her. "I know she would you have made me realise that. I was so scared when I first met you because I was scared of losing you, I couldn't go through that again". I wiped her tears away with my thumb. 'Thank you for telling me, it means a lot that you trust me". And trust me she does. We sat in silence, our hearts beating in rhythm. Now it seemed the girl who had at first been so complicated was in fact a girl with a broken heart of sorts. She was beginning to let go. We lay in my favourite spot for a couple of hours. Talking about nothing yet talking about everything. Yet all I knew was that everything was going to be okay, because I had Elodie.