Not Your Average Nerd (BxB)

Chapter 2

People still wouldn't approach me though and I didn't have a problem with that. I kept up my cold exterior and made my way through school one less fight at a time.

As usual all good things must eventually come to an end. One day when I came home to my surprise my parents were there. I don't know what it was but I had hope in my heart. Hope that they would tell me good news, maybe that they were coming to stay and live with me or that they got a job closer to me.

That day I was reminded to never have hope.

That day my parents told me that we would have to move and I would have to start my senior year in a new school because they got a job offer even farther away from me and they couldn't turn it down.

Instead of choosing a job closer to me they choose one even farther away.

That alone enraged me. After they told me the news they didn't even stay for five minutes before telling me that someone will be here to pack my stuff and tomorrow morning a car would be outside to take me to the airport. Not once looking back or even saying goodbye.

That night I had a severe panic attack, the first attack i've had in almost a year.

All my efforts gone along with my hope in the matter of seconds.

I tried to wrap my head around why I felt that way, why I felt so strongly about them leaving me again like my parents hadn't done this to me before. The confusion then turned to sadness and from sadness to anger.

I wasn't angry because they left me. I wasn't angry because they were deciding to move farther away from me. I was angry because I thought they knew me and my situation. My anxiety, my anger issues, my panic attacks they knew everything and instead of deciding to pick me for once, there son and there only child, they choose there jobs. That's what made me angry.

A piece of me wanted to believe they had no other choice but to take the job. I wanted to believe that they wanted to choose me. But after staying countless night's trying to convince myself I finally faced the truth.

People who really want to be with you, wouldn't choose to leave you.

That night I fell into a dark abyss, and I don't think i'm ever coming back out.

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I don't exactly know how I ended up late on the first day of my senior year in a new school, but I am. I didn't feel like going. I wished that I could just skip, but I knew that i'd rather be in school then be in this house all alone. I knew if I was alone my mind would get the best of me. I knew my mind would wander, and when my mind wandered it was only a matter of time until my problems consumed me.

I sighed, making my way downstairs and decided to just get a glass of water. I wasn't feeling hungry but I knew that I would have to eat eventually, so for now it was just water.

I went and took a shower and brushed my teeth so I could be somewhat clean for my first day. After that I began getting ready into a regular outfit. I went into my closet and took out a black shirt, black jeans, and some shoes that matched. I put on my rings that I don't remember where I got them from, while contemplating what I was going to eat. I suddenly remembered that somebody gave me a ring as a gift and after that I just started buying them.

Happy with my realization, I sprayed on some cologne and left my room. I didn't bother doing my hair cause it was still wet. I knew it would dry eventually so I just left it alone.

Feeling more hungry now, I went downstairs and into the kitchen. I grabbed a box of lucky charms out of the pantry and took some milk out of the fridge. I poured a regular sized bowl and began to eat. I pulled out my phone to look at the time, 9:25 am.