I'm writing this in the car, so excuse the messiness. Ash is currently driving me to meet you, and I'll be honest with you: I'm nervous. I don't know how you're going to react. I don't want to say the wrong things and then have you hate me forever. Your letter was so short, and I'm scared that you really don't want to meet me and you're only doing this out of pity or something like that. I really hope that's not the case.
I don't want to blow it. I don't want to ruin things with you, no matter how terrible they already are. I want to be able to call you my friend for a very long time, even my best friend hopefully, and maybe even more someday... But that's crazy talk as of right now. All I have are your letters and two photos. I can't be feeling like this, it's stupid.
Mikey says we're almost there, so I better put this away. I might write again later. I don't think I'm going to send you this letter, ever.
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Oh, I can't stop smiling, my face is hurting so much but I don't care. Thank you so much for meeting me today. You have the most amazing smile. Why won't you let me take a photo of you smiling?
You asked if I always carry my camera around, and I never really got the chance to answer because Mikey was being stupid, but yes. I always carry my camera around everywhere I go because there's always something beautiful to take a photo of. Today, I believe it was you.
Here's a photo I snuck while you were talking to Ash (I'm so glad those two left after that). I don't understand how you could ever have seen yourself as anything other than perfect.
I think you're perfect, Calum. You might not believe me, but it's true. It's not a joke, it's not a prank. This is the real deal. Calum... I think I like you. A lot. Please trust me when I tell you that I would never purposefully hurt you or betray you. I want to show you how amazing you are to me... I'm really glad we cleared things up today. I hope that from now on, things are only going to go uphill for the two of us.
God, I'm so fucking sappy. I'm never going to send you this letter.
Ps: THIS IS MIKEY. LUCAS LEFT THIS LETTER IN ASHTON'S CAR CAUSE HE'S A DUMBASS SO IM MAILING IT OUT :)))) THANK ME WHEN YOURE MARRIED WITH FIFTY DOGS