So many thoughts...don't know what to do with them.
Depression is like quick sand and swift dark shadows that consume and swallow you whole. It feels like a burning pressure on your chest that is begging, screaming for release. This is the part of the all consuming pain that I am drowning and suffocating in. I am being mercilessly swallowed whole by life.
It is like I am dying more and more each day, like soon I shall just run out of life, through no fault of my own I shall no longer be able to function, and therefore I shall cease to exist.
I keep losing my self in time. I go back. I go forward. The present is the past and the past is the present and the future is both. One moment I am here in the now, experiencing this reality, then I am the scared lost 11 year old girl who is standing watching as her dad's ashes are placed in the ground wondering what this means, to live without him.
The shadows cause by depressing forever gnaw at my mind, I will either learn to live with them or they shall consume me, I believe the latter shall be my fate.