When you push away everything and everyone in hopes of not ending up hated and hating, you can also find yourself pushing away the person who is the only one able to fix you. No, not fix... as cliche as it sounds; love you. *** This story means a lot to me. It kinda tells my story, but like in my future (or what I hope to be my future), so this is all really close to me. I don't think I've ever spent so much time trying to perfect anything before, so I really hope you like it. I have to warn you, there is a few dirty bits in this. They're cute, but it's still sex, so yeah... I will put out a warning at the beginning of those parts, so if you don't want to read it, you don't have to. NB! This story is also posted on my personal account @johanne310 !!! I just want to let you all know that nothing is stolen! It's just that I'm the same person on two different accounts. PLEASE ENJOY!