Based off own experiences from past and fears for the future. The struggles I deal with. The constant battle in my mind. The ones I use to love. Along with my hopes for the future. This will be like a diary type style. I will tell you what happened that day to what happened in my past. I will try my best not to tangent to much.This is my therapy if you want to bully me or any one else do NOT cyberbully any one. Please like I said this will be my therapy I feel comfortable talking about. Trigger Warning! THIS SUBJECT MATTER MAY CONTAIN ABUSE, DIFFERENT DISORDERS, UNCOMFORTABLE TOPICS THAT ARE HARD FOR ME TO TALK ABOUT, AND MENTAL SUFFERING ALONG SIDE PHYSICAL HARM TO SELF! ALSO CONTAINS SUICIDAL IDEATION AND HOMICIDAL IDEATION! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!