I was never caught up with everything. That's why I had no idea who he was when I met him. To me, he was just a normal guy. I wanted to be more than friends, but my past stopped me. There is only one thing that can fix my life right now. And love is not it. I need friends that won't ignore me. And that's what I got. But now, I think I do need love. But I refuse to let myself fall in love with him. But I never knew how hard that was going to be.