Copyright © 2011 Kirsty Moseley
My heart stopped, he didn't want me, he'd changed his mind and he didn't want to be with me. I closed my eyes as the pain started to rip its way into my heart. I couldn't breathe, how the hell could he do this to me again? Why? What the hell does this boy get out of breaking my heart? Maybe he enjoys it for some sick reason.
I could feel the sob trying to break free so I put my hands on his chest and shoved him away from me with all of my strength making him stumble back a couple of steps because I caught him off guard.
"Get out" I croaked trying not to cry. He stepped forward to me again so I slapped his chest and tried to push him away again using the wall to give me leverage. "Get out! Leave me alone, you're such an asshole Ethan! Why did I trust you? I knew you'd do this to me again I knew it, just go." I cried angrily as the tears finally fell down my face.
"Lia." he said catching my hands and pinning them above my head pressing his body back to mine again keeping me tight against the wall. "Lia listen to me for goodness sake. It's not because I don't want you with me, damn it will you listen?" he asked gripping my hands tighter as I tried to struggle free. I needed to get him the hell away from me. All those promises last night, I knew it was too good to be true, I knew I wasn't that lucky.
"Stop struggling and listen." he demanded. He bent to look into my eyes. "I love you Lia, I want to be with you, please calm down." he said softly. I looked into his eyes as he loosened his grip on my hands. He does want to be with me? I took a deep breath and stopped struggling. He pulled back and wiped my tears away softly, "Please don't ever doubt that I love you again, that hurt me." he said frowning.
I could see the truth there, I'd hurt him doubting him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him back to me hugging him tightly. "I'm sorry but you said that and I just thought...." I started but I didn't know why I thought it I should have listened to him, I needed to trust him again not to hurt me. I sighed, "I'm sorry." I kissed the side of his neck.
He pulled back slightly to look at me, "I know why you thought it but I swear I will never hurt you again. I want to be with you." he said cupping my face in his broken hands lightly.
"Then why did you say that I couldn't move out?" I asked confused as hell, he wanted to be with me but I needed to stay with Johnny? How the hell does that make sense in anyone's mind?
He sighed sadly and closed his eyes pressing his forehead to mine. "I need you to have an agent watching you, the only reason they've assigned someone to you is because your engaged to Johnny. If you break it off with him then you won't have anyone watching you, you could get hurt." he said looking pained.
That just doesn't make sense either, I won't get hurt if I'm not with Johnny, there would be no reason for the stalker guy to want to hurt me, it was Johnny he wanted.
I shook my head, "No, once I've broken up with Johnny then the guy won't be interested in me anymore." I shrugged.
Ethan groaned, "I can't take that chance Lia, what if he is still interested in you and you have no one watching you? I can't risk you getting hurt, that would kill me, I can't do that." he said looking at me pleadingly.
"But I'd be living with you, why would I need someone to watch me if I had a badass boyfriend?" I asked smiling teasingly.
He didn't smile, "Lia I work a lot, my day is from seven thirty till seven thirty everyday. What about the times I'm not there? Or when you're at college?" he asked raising his eyebrows.
"Ethan, this is crazy I honestly think the chances of this guy still wanting to hurt me after I've broken up with Johnny are really slim. I'll take the risk." I said going up on tip toes to kiss him.