is it her is she the one for me. will i ever find the one , its been ages and not only have i been alone never aging ive wondered if i will ever find a woman who can accept me for who i am . a vampire .
i never thought that being a vampire had its perks but it was until i started realizing im alone everyone in my family has someone and i have no one at all .my mom ruby has my father lucius, my sister vanessa has my brother charles and my other sister alicia has my brother john, and me no one .
since im a vampire i usually never sleep which makes my days go by longer and longer than ususal.
i have taken the liberty of finding my self a hobby called dreaming more like awake dreaming.i started to conjure the perfect girl fo me a nice thick curvacious body with sultry lips that were so soft the most mysterious eyes iveever seen my favorite color hazel and black jet black curly hair ..Althought my dreams get far worse i start dreaming of different ways to arouse her things to do with her ways to make her want me more and more , i cant stop it its getting worse my obession for this girl was too much to bear . i wanted her badly so badly i would kill for her and i cant kill because were good vampires . the last dream that occured , I dreamt that she was addicted to me i turned her into a vampire and she was obsessed with me and she was giving me all the things i could possibly want she was feeding off me drink in my blood in such a way i didnt care if she killed me i just wanted to please her make her happy but then again even if i did find her would she want me as a vampire or would she want to leave her life right now as it is and come make me make her into one only time would tell after all i aint aging and i have no luck . im 6,3 black hair blowout style chiseled body since im not doing any thing except working out and tribal tattoos on my back all over .......i may be a sex icon here in the underworld but not in the mortal world ................