letting go

how does one let go? how do you tell the one you love "i will give way., im bowing out." when the mere fact conjures a fear so overwhelming that it takes away all that gives maning to life. how ou let go of a feeling that life shared together and o i wept. every tears i shed is a act of my ultimate sacrifice, the final act of love. every waking day is a never ending cycle of anguish and resignation when even in the silence of the night i was haunted with what was and what could hve been. how do you release a battered soul from the upheavels of anger and love. i felt every thud and bang that i was made to suffer. but all this i go through if only to prove a point. that i will not turn our short live affair to anything less noble, pure and life giving. despie the incredulities, despite the flaws and against the tide of prudence. i waggered my life when i said yes to you.

then suddenly, i am alone once more. pain has given way o despair, loniness todesolation.  and in the struggle between my heart nd my wit, i began to ask question why me when my only mistake is to fall for you? do you really love me? wo was i to you? you may have the answer but i doubt if these could put my heat at peace. to provide a clousure that will bring relief to all his pain. restore back my ability to love. move on with life.

so once again i am solitary figure on a lonely road., i will travel alone once more. all over again.. and as i take the first steps, i will takes stock of my memory.caefully sifting through the trials and tribulationsof life. weeping as i revisit the most painfull episodes, takin refuge in sweet memories. bu in all these, you will linger on. there will e nw faces, new chapter. but you will aways abide in me. i too have decided not to forget. i will love you from afar from indeed, i was never meant to be a part of you..