The Diary Of Jazmyn: The New Begining

we've been talking everyday; right before lunch, at his locker. sometimes, i would come to his locker and wait for him, or he would wait for me. eithier way, we still talked. i loved how when i tell him how my day has been so far he looks me dead in my eyes and then i start to either smile or blush. he would always look at his friends like 'dont come over here, im talking' i would always peep that. every time he was talking to his friends, i would always catch small glaces at him, when he smiles and laughs. he was so perfect. everyday i would fall more and more for him. there was no coming back or up. i was loving him even more when he talked and even if he's just talking to someone else in the hallways. it has been a long week, and it's finally friday. i loved fridays, i mean who didnt? friday was when nobody cared and everybody would be wildin out at lunch and after school. nobody would go home after school on a friday. jordan does have practice tuesday-friday for basketball, but this friday, he didnt have practice. i didnt know if this was a sign, or what. it was 3rd period and drew is in that class. i sit by his as well. he always asks me "is jordan your new boo? jazmyn, tell me, i wont tell no one if he is!" and i just ignore him. i completely done with him and his games. and besides, he shouldnt be worried about me if he has gianni. i couldnt help the fact that my feelings for drew were fading faster because im talking to jordan. drew kept bothering me about jordan and i just wanted to slap him. "SHUTUP! DANG! WE DONT GO OUT!"  i yelled. the whole class stopped talking. the teacher; Ms. Lewis stared at me. "........I'm sorry, Ms. Lewis" i say while sitting down slowly in my chair. "dang, jazmyn okay why you being so pressed over jordan anyways."  drew says. i couldnt take it anymore. i got up quickly and left out the classroom. everybody just laughing at me and now everybody knew i liked jordan. great. Ms. Lewis walks out the classroom and finds me crying silently. she says "Jazmyn, i know you're going thru a rough time right now, but you need to just focus on your work and don't worry about your classmates." she wipes my tears and looks me in my eyes. i sniffled and say "okay." i hurried and wiped my tears while i was walking back into the classroom. Ms. Lewis understood me the most in that school. she knows that i was being torched. i sit back in my seat. 20 mins later and the bell rings for lunch. i left the classroom heated and i just wanted to get my lunch, go in the classroom, eat and cry. while im opening my locket, i see jordan. he's looking cuter than usual today and his cologne was smelling up the hallway. i didnt even look up to smile or say hi to him because i didnt want him to see me like this. i quickly walk to the cafeteria and then i hear a smooth, deep voice call my name. "Jazmyn!" jordan says while trying to catch up to me. i was looking down the whole time, not trying to cry. "wha- whats wrong?" he says looking at me worried. ".... im just having a bad day, thats all." i say while my voice is cracking. "no, it sounds like youre about to cry, tell me whats wrong. do you want to sit down and talk about it?" he says pointing down. ".......sure." i said softly. i was so happy that he was interested in knowing what was wrong, but what would i say without telling him i like him? what excuse should i tell him? or should i just tell him the truth? i dont know. im so confused and i need help.....