My Secret Love Song

Chapter 44

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Dedicated to British_Irish_Boy_1D who is missing Payzer as much as me. I couldn't break them up in this story sorry if I'm 'inaccurate' 

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Hailey’s POV

I was sitting on a spare bed in Noah’s place, my song book opened in front of me. I was on my stomach pencil in hand, doodling all over the margins, unable to focus. I was trying to edit the song I had written over the 2 weeks I had been with the boys, left, and been here. Noah was out for food, it lunch time and I hadn’t wanted to leave. I loved being here with Noah, I forgot how ridiculously hilarious and fun he was! It was so easy being around him, I don’t think I had changed out of sweats all week.

“I COME BEARING FOOD!” I heard the door open and slam, snapping me back to reality. I looked back to my song book, planning to try to read over everything one last time before going to eat whatever Noah had felt like buying. When my eyes flitted over to the margins of the paged I gasped, realizing what I had unknowingly drawn there.

Harry Styles. Over and over and over again. In little hearts with curly lettering. I couldn’t believe it. I flipped back to the beginnings of my songs and saw that they exactly resembled what I had drawn at first. I quickly flipped back to the song I had written and rereading realized most of the lyrics applied to Harry and how I felt. Oh god.

I quickly walked downstairs to Noah. I threw him my song book. “Look at the newest pages.” He looked at them and smiled.

“You’re still in love.” He said teasingly.

“I had no idea I was even drawing that! I was completely zoned out.” I exclaimed. That’s when I knew. I was fighting a losing battle, eventually my heart was going to drag me back to Harry. I had a feeling no matter how much the jackass hurt me I would end up going back. But right now that didn’t even seem like a bad thing, which scared me even more.

He handed me a sandwich from Chick-fil-a. Man, one of the perks of living in America. I took it and began to eat and he sat down and did the same. “Hailey, I know you are stubborn. But it seems like everything but that stubborn head of your wants to go back to him.” He sighed. “I even don’t feel totally comfortable with this but, Hailey stop fighting. You love him don’t you?”

I looked down, pushing hair out of my face. Taking his advice, I stopped fighting and slowly breathed out. “I think so…”

The fact was that I knew so. Every time I saw him back at the house in London I would get the same butterflies I got when I had a crush on him when I was 16, that I got when I knew I was deeply in love with him.

“I just don’t want him to hurt me again.” I confessed, knowing Noah would be the person to tell if anyone.

“By the looks of it, he is still crazy for you. Its obvious, he told you. Maybe you need to take the chance one more time? AND if he does hurt you again I get to kick his ass!” I smiled, it sounded like a good idea. To be happy with Harry again. To have his big arms wrapped around me while we stood together. For him to wake me up and put me to sleep each night with one of his gentle and loving kisses.