Can You Ever Love Me? A Niam fanfic

Chapter Twelve

Liam's POV

My heart felt like it was about to beat out of my chest. Niall had just said he loved me. Niall. Niall loved me. I thought he could never love me.

I was about to respond but was stopped by the sound of the door opening behind us. Fuck. Why did we have to be always interupted when we were together. Niall had turned around quickly making my hands drop from his waist. I peeked around him and saw Skye standing in the open doorway.

I groaned quietly to myself and lent my back into the pillows. Niall glanced at me, hearing my groan but turned his attention to Skye. She glared at me before speaking directly to Niall.

"I need to talk to you." She said before turning on her heel and walking back out the door.

Niall looked at me and was about to say something but I stopped him.

"Go talk to her Ni." I said trying not to sound to annoyed.

He threw me a sympathetic look and jogged out the door.

What the fuck had just happened. Niall kisses me, tells me he loves me and then leaves the room. I didn't even know Niall was gay! Wait. Was he even gay? I felt so fucking confused. This is what I had wanted most in the world, to have Niall love me and for me to confess my love for him. And I hadn't even had the chance to say it.

I thought he loved Skye? That's what he had said. But if he loved her why would he kiss me and ugh. I needed to talk to Zayn.

I touched my fingers to my lips still feeling the tingle Niall's lips had left. The kiss was amazing. Niall's lips were so soft and gentle.

Even though the kiss was amazing it wasn't how I had pictured it in my dreams. It had been quick, too quick. I dreamed about it being long and lingering. And having no fucking interuptions. I sighed heavily, staring out the window. Why couldn't falling for somone be easy for once.

I was interupted from my thoughts again by someones footsteps coming towards my bed. I turned to see Zayn.

"What happened?" He said quickly.

"He kissed me and told me he loved me." I said sighing.

"Why don't you look happy then!" Zayn replied exasperation filling his voice.

"I would if Skye hadn't come in and ruined the moment! I was about to tell him I loved him back when she walked in and said she needed to talk to him." I said my voice rising.

"Okay okay. No need to raise your voice." Zayn replied patting my shoulder.

"What am I going to do? What if he decides what he did was stupid and stays with Skye and just ignores me and-" I was cut short of my rambling by Zayn putting his hand over my mouth. I tried to speak again but my words were unaudible so I stopped, waiting for Zayn to remove his hand.

"Just shut up Li. Niall isn't like that. He is not going to just ignore you okay? He told you he loved you and kissed you for gods sake! He isn't just going to leave you hanging." He said removing his hand from my mouth. "Now." He continued. "I don't want you saying anything until you have spoken to him okay? Wait till he has come back from talking to Skye and then talk to him."

I sighed again, but I knew Zayn was right. He always was.

"Fine." I replied.

Niall's POV

Oh my god. I had done it. I had told Liam I loved him and fucking kissed him. Why did Skye have to come in and ruin the moment? For all I know Liam might not love me back but I had to talk to Skye. 

I had followed Skye out the door and we were now standing in the sterile white corridor a short way from Liam's room. 

"Look babe. I'm sorry for what I said okay? I didn't realize how much Liam had been hurt. I just wanted to see you that's all. You can't blame me for that right? I guess I was just a tad jealous even though I have nothing to be jealous about. Right Niall?" Skye started to apolagize but her tone changed at the end. 

"It's okay. I forgive you." I replied smiling at her. 

What was I doing? I was supposed to be telling her that I loved Liam and that we couldn't go out anymore. Why was I forgiving her? I thought I was ready for this. I was ready for this. I was ready to love a guy again, even if Liam didn't love me back. Was I? I had taken the chance of my best friend loving me and I didn't even know the answer. 

I shouldn't of told him. I shouldn't have listened to Zayn. I should have made sure I was ready. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. What was I thinking? Liam was probably just in shock and that's why he kissed me back. He didn't love me. How could he?

"Babe?" the sound of Skye's voice brought me out of my thoughts. I smiled widely at her to show I was okay and leaned in to kiss her lightly on the lips. They felt so different from Liam's. 

Stop it Niall. Liam doesn't love you back. Stop thinking about him. Skye can make you happy. 

"Let's go get something to eat yeah?" I said grabbing her hand and walking down the corridor towards the lift. 

"Are you sure you are okay?" Skye replied trying to catch up with me without being pulled along. 

"Yeah fine." I said pushing the down button next to the lift. 

I'll clear my head and then I'll go back and tell Liam what I said was a mistake and I don't know what I was thinking. He would understand. Why wouldn't he? He didn't love me. Skye would make me happy, I would make sure of it. 

I let go of Skye's hand and wrapped my arm around her waist pulling her closer into me. Finally the metal doors of the lift opened and we stepped inside.

I had to stay strong. I wouldn't let this break me.   

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Hehehe. I'M SORRY IT'S SO POO. I have not finished me exams yet I have 3 left. I just wanted to write this :D x