Finally updated. Sorry for the two-week delay. I will get better at it.
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I slowly peered around the thick, red velvet curtain to find thousands of eyes staring back at me. Amy gave me a reassuring look before gently nudging my side. It all felt like a dream; the crowd, the judges, everything.
“Niall,” Amy whispered. Her voice echoed around my head, sending goosebumps to prickle at my skin. I could feel my heart pounding against my chest.
The nerves were almost unbearable.
I took in a deep breath as Amy’s hand found its way onto my back. Attempting to regulate my breathing once again, I took one long stride onto the darkened wood. My pace had quickly changed to a lively jog as I was greeted by a thunderous roar uplifting from the crowd.
Was I really about to do this?
I fumbled around with the plastic bottle, contemplating whether I should take them or not. The idea of it was so tempting. It had my heart racing at the thought of ending it all; practically rewinding the pain.
A constant tapping of water droplets from the faucet invaded my thoughts and I could feel my fingers starting to tap violently on the plastic in frustration. I needed to distract myself from them before I did anything I know I would regret.
I pushed up off of the bed and strode out the room, mind drifting off occasionally. I had been counting every single day since the day of her funeral - exactly 56. It was finally starting to sink in, after months of denial, tears and pain, it actually felt real.
I threw on a coat before making my way out the front door. My feet hit the pavement with a thud as I breathed in the cold London air. People scurried past me as I made my way down the main road to the cemetery. I could barely concentrate on anything with the thought of her floating in my mind.
I just needed to feel her presence somehow. To just talk to her, cry to her.
I just needed her, and I was starting to give up all hope.
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Sorry the chapters are getting shorter and shorter; they're just easier to do. When I hit like 80 fans, I'll upload an extra long one.
Please, please, please vote, comment, fan, ect. It would mean the world.
Dedicated to CaptainSmile simply because she is amazing. She went back and voted for all my chapters, spammed them with comments and she's incredibly sweet. x
Niall on the side just makes me want to frolik around in a meadow of dasies and tulips okay you dead yet?