It was above my head
-Hey ..Do you wanna hear a story about a friend of mine..?
-Sure..
-Ok.. Well he was amazing..He was the best person I have ever known..He was kind and everybody loved him you know.. And if there was someone who didnt, he just hadnt met him yet..Everybody knew him and loved him..And he was so kind with them ,too. How did I met him? Hmm.. thats a another storyfunny and sad .. But you know I felt from the first moment that I would talk to him sometime..I knew it like I knew him..It was kind of weird..Well yes we spoke one day
And one day I made a mistake and I show him that I did care.. I cryied a lot.. So I went to apologize.. Not that I really felt like apologizing you know.. It would give some more time with him..That was enough..
So I tell him that I was sorry and do you know what he turns and says to me?? He said '' And what should I do? Change who I am?''
That was one of the things that stay inside and dont let you go..Like constantly thinking of them
And I was speachless..I was alone again..
It really makes my angry when I am thinking that I didnt ask him anything and I stayed even though I knew..
And when he was asking me ''What a girl like you would want from me?'' I wanted to scream in his face ,that only his presence there was enough..And some more above that..
And now the only thing I want to do is to scream everything I didnt say when I could.. When he was there..Things like..you are not alone, thank you for changing me into what I really am, for waking me up,for making me the one I want to be,for being the best friend I ever had, for standing there every time and wanting it,for even the minutes I was in your thoughts and head when you were in bed before you go ti sleep as you said to me one night and made me something even more from happy..For being the reason I felt alive and strong..like you
I want to say to him that I love him from the deepest place in my heart and if he wanted me to measure it ,it would be from here till the end of the sky..If there is end an end in sky..
So would you do me the favor to tell him what I just told you? Cause I know he probably listens you..
I think that that night he got it...I drunk the left of my shot and left him there..Before passed the door of the bar,I turned to see him one last time ,sitting at our place there where we usually spent our nights..He was still there standing breathtaking as always..
His eyes were there looking mine...He was there for one more time..There again..Being still the only person I love the most..
I wish there was a word meaning more than just love..Is there?
Never let the chances go by..Life is short ,valuable and unique..
And saying to someone that you love him is important too..That person wont be there forever
Love..
Live..
