On the Inside

I can't finish

What I never started.

And I can't feel anything

But brokenhearted.

I can't step forward

If my feet aren't on the ground.

And I can't stop screaming

Though I make no sound.

So who can help me?

Can I be saved?

Can I crawl out of this self made cave?

I remember life.

And I know of light.

But all I want to feel is numb tonight.

How can I go on..

When it hurts to smile?

Real and true happiness...

It's been a while.

It won't come easy

if it's worth anything.

No one can help me.

I must spread my wings.

I say I'm a survivor.

I say that I'm strong.

But who knows I'm hurting...

When I pretend nothing is wrong?

(m.g./Oct. 08)