No One

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-97 pounds- The scale read.

I looked in the mirror, and all I saw was imperfections.

'That's it. I can't do this anymore.' I thought. I stood up and walked to my room and grabbed some Tylenol. I emptied the bottle in my hand. I opened my mouth.

"Hey ca- ALYSSA WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!" Louis yells running in. He grabs my hand, knocking the pills on the floor and pulls the bottle away from me. I fight back trying to get the medicine back. Why did I not lock the door?! I'm so STUPID!

"LET ME GO! I WANT TO DIE!" I yelled fighting. Louis calls Lottie and Felicity. They came in and saw what is happening. They ran to me what they saw was me in a corner with a blood red face.

"Wha- GOD NO! PLEASE ALYSSA!" Lottie yells. She runs to the other side of Louis. She grabbed my hand and fished the last one out of my grip. I push her off and stood up.

"ALYSSA STOP! STOP!" Felicity yells. They grabbed me and tried to settle me. I fought as hard as I could. I want to die. No one wants me. I'm worthless!

"NO! LET ME GO!" I yelled struggling from their grip.

"JUST STOP!" Louis yells. I got lose from Louis and fell to the floor picking the pills up again. I was fixing to eat them but Felicity grabbed my hands. She shook them out and Louis tried to get me to spit the ones I had already in my mouth out. I try to swallow them all at once but end up choking.

"ALYSSA! STOP!" Louis yells. My face turned red agian and Felicity stars cry while yelling.

"PLEASE!" Lottie adds. I cough up the pills an try to get them again. Louis still has a grip on me. I fight back as hard as I can. He picks me up and Lottie runs to help. I'm still fighting with all my might. I get loose and run.

"ALYSSA!" Felicity yells when she see me reach for one of my blades in my batroom. I slam the door. I lock it and ignor the yelling and screaming. I sit on the edge of the tub and was fixing to cut when the door flew open and Louis grabbed me. He took the blade and threw it in the trash. I fought for the small blade and when he threw it, I dove after it. He grabbed me and brought me out. I keep fighting.

"ALYSSA PLEASE!" Lottie cried. I finally I just drop. I let all my weight go and I fall. I give up. I can't do it anymore.

"Wahoo." He says. He places me on the bed.

"What just happened?" Lottie asked.

"Alyssa?" Felicity asks holding my hand.

"Hmm." I said staring at the ceiling avoiding all eye contact.

"Why do you want to leave us?" She asked. I looked at her. She was crying some. I sat up and hugged her.

"I'm sorry. " I cradled her. Lottie was teary eyed too. I grabbed her hand.

"Why?" Felicity repeated.

"Cause, I'm not worth it here." I said truthfully.

"Yes you are. Do you know how awful our lives would be without you?" Lottie says after a couple minutes of it being quiet.

"Yeah." Louis said. I hugged him.

"Why are you so skinny?" Lottie asked. She looked at my stomach. I wrapped my hands around it and looked at the floor.

"I'm not." I said.

"Yes you are. Have you been eating?" Louis asked forcing me to look at him.

"Yeah." I said lying through my teeth. SEE I AM TERIBLE! I NEED TO DIE! I HAVE TO!

"Alyssa, you need to stop. You're perfect." Felicity said. I started crying.

"I'm home!" Mom yelled.

"OK!" They yelled back.

"Alyssa, you need to stop. Suicide would solve the problem, but you would never get anywhere, cause you'd be gone... for good." Lottie says.

"I would be better off and so would you guys. One less person to worry about." I said in return.

"HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT! YOU ARE PERFECT IN EVERY WAY!" Louis yells. I shake my head crying harder than before.

"WHAT IS GOING O-" Mom says walking in. She looks on the floor and back up to me.

"Oh God Alyssa! Please. Please tell me it's not what it looks like!!" She says. I just nod crying. She runs up to me and hugs me.

"Shhhh... Baby. You're perfect please, please, PLEASE never consider this again! I don't know what life would be like without you. You mean to much to lose." She said rubbing my back and crying. I nod and cry more. Phoebe and Daisy walk in.

"Whats wrong?" Daisy asks. She looked at me scared.

"Is sissy ok?" Phoebe adds. They climb up on the bed and hug me.

"Baby. Why? Whats gotten into you?" Mom asked.

"I-I don't know. I just don't look right. I'm not skinny enough. I'm not what people want me to be." I said looking at mom.

"You are perfect." Lottie says crying. I shake my head letting the tears pour. The twins started crying cause I never cry. So mom took them out of the room and told them what was happening.

"You make us happy during tough times." Felicity added.

"You Are My Sunshine

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night, dear,

As I lay sleeping

I dreamed I held you in my arms.

When I awoke, dear,

I was mistaken

And I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away." Louis sung while rocking me. I wiped my tears.

"Louis?" I asked.

"Yes." He answered still rocking me back and forth.

"I'll try to stop if you go for X-factor." I said looking at him.

"DEAL! Anything you want! Just please stop, we love you too much." He said. I nodded and we went out to the living room. When they saw me, they tackled me with hugs.

"Please stay." Daisy said.

"I will for now. Ok?" I said picking them up.

"Yeah!" They cheered.

(First couple of chapters are going to jump time before the story really starts.)

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