Hush little babies don't you cry...Eleanor loves you and so do I...(COMPLETED!)

My alarm sounded telling me to get up. I reluctantly left the warmth of my bed and stumbled into Aurora’s room. I shook her slightly until she woke up. Her beautiful blue eyes fluttered open and focused on me, a pout instantly took over her lips. I couldn’t help but laugh.

“Sleep.” She whined. I shook my head and scooped her up.

“Daddy’s birthday remember.” Her eyes lit up and a smile over took her pout. I swear if she could she would be dragging me into the kitchen.

 I sat her down and began making breakfast. I had told mum it was fine, she didn’t have to make breakfast today and that I wanted to do something nice for her and dad. She reluctantly agreed and just to be sure as soon as she fell asleep I removed the alarm clock from the bedroom.

 I mixed the eggs onto the flower and sugar and added just the right amount of milk. I turned the hob on and poured a small amount of the pancake mixture into the pan. My memory of making pancakes for my mum instantly flooded my mind and I knew exactly what to do. One by one the pancakes began to layer up. Once I had used the last of the batter I drizzled syrup onto and placed them on a tray along with some coffee and Dad’s present.

 It was weird that just little gestures like this to my adopted mum and dad could bring back so many memories of my old family and the things I used to do for them. Despite all the love I had for my mum, if I could I wouldn’t change a thing. I know that may sound harsh but it would mean I wouldn’t have Aurora. From day one mum resented her and I was the one who took care of her, so to have my old mum back would mean sacrificing my little sister who means more to me than anyone else.

 I can’t help but feel slightly pained that the first moments of her life she was rejected by her own mother. I can’t imagine how that must feel but well she was only a few minutes old but that won’t stop her wondering why her mother left her. I just hope our new mum and dad, Lou and El can create enough lobe in her to make her forget her birth mother although she will never be out of my mind and that is something I will never escape. The constant guilt of feeling more love towards Louis and Eleanor, the fear that one day she’ll turn up at the door heartbroken to see my new family. I suppose those fears will go away, won’t they? I shouldn’t really feel guilt after all she left us not the other way around.

 Pushing the unwanted feelings aside I pick up the tray in one hand and hold Aurora’s tiny palm in the other. I manage to kick the door open and Aurora immediately goes to Dad and repeatedly hits his chest from on top of the covers until he shows signs of life.

“I’m an old man! Leave me alone.” He whines and rolls over. I set the tray down and help Aurora up onto the bed.

“Daddy, wake up!” Aurora demands. Hitting him again. I smile as he jolts up and smiles at Aurora.

“I’m up.” He salutes. I roll my eyes and proceed to wake mum up. She is more cooperative than dad. She eyes the pancakes and turns to me.

“Where did you learn to cook?” I laugh.

“I wasn’t always homeless. I used to make pancakes for my birth mum and dad before they left.” She nodded letting the subject go.

“Gimme!” Dad and Aurora and both opening and closing their hands like hungry toddlers. Well Aurora is but dad I will never know what age he is purely on his personality. I laugh and hand them over. They all dig in but I don’t. Food, morning and I don’t really mix. Mum seems to notice my hesitation but I wave her off. Once finished Dad eyes the present wrapped in the One Direction paper and the envelope. I smile cheekily as he opens the card and is instantly startled by the voices that greet him.

“Hi we’re One Direction.” The boys say in unison.

“And we hope you have a great birthday.” Dad’s voice says to himself.

“Well wished a happy birthday by myself, that’s new.” He winks.

“Serves you right for buying Aurora that hoodie.” I retort.

“I knew that would come back to bite me.” He muttered. I laughed and watched him open the present. A smile over took his features.

“Aw my little girl come ere.” He shouted pulling me and Aurora into a group, sideways hug. I laughed and brought mum into it to.