I found myself waking up from the worst nightmare i had ever had, and i knew it was because of the fear-toxin that Jonathan had injected with me. I felt upset and angry at him, but i knew he couldn't be blamed for his actions.
I opened my eyes slowly, once i had found the energy to, and i found that i was being held in Jonathan's arms as he sat on the bed.
I looked up at him, and saw the tears sliding down his cheeks as he muttered to himself, holding me close to him. He hadn't realized that i was awake yet.
"Why was i so stupid? I should have made sure i was okay before i went inside.. stupid, stupid, stupid! How could i be so reckless, how could i hurt her?" Jonathan muttered to himself, and froze when i reached up to gently caress his cheek.
"...Johnny?" I murmured weakly, and Jonathan looked down at me, looking incredibly relieved.
"Lily! Oh, thank God you're alright! I'm so sorry, Lily, i'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, i swear!" Jonathan exclaimed, holding me closer to him.
I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck and sighed, relaxing into his hold.
"Its alright, Jonathan. I know you didn't do it intentionally. It's alright, Jonathan." I murmured, closing my eyes again as Jonathan tightened his hold on me.
I reached down to press my hand against my stomach, where i had a slight bump, though it was barely visible. I knew my baby was alright, i suppose it was motherly instinct, but i could just tell.
I was glad the baby was alright, i knew Jonathan would never be able to forgive himself if something happened to the baby because of him.
"Are you alright, Lils?" Jonathan asked gently, and i smiled, looking up at Jonathan and kissing him on the cheek.
"Yes, I'm alright, Jonathan." I told him, and he looked relieved, kissing me back in return. I shifted so i could cuddle closer to him, and i sighed.
"What did you see, Lily?" Jonathan asked me, and tears burnt in my eyes at the question, i didn't want to answer him.
"Lily? Lily, are you alright?" Jonathan asked urgently, and i realized my silence must make him think i was hurt. I looked up at him, to see that large amount of worry in his eyes as he watched me carefully.
"I- I don't want to t-talk a-about it." I stuttered, and Jonathan looked down.
"It would help to talk about it, Lily. It would help me to understand." Jonathan said, and i looked over at him, before sighing and hiding my face in his shirt, before sighing heavily and nuzzling closer to him before beginning to speak.
"I saw my f-father... it was back when we were younger, and i still l-lived with h-him. He was b-beating me..." I trailed off, starting to sob. Jonathan rubbed my back comfortingly, gently kissing my head.
"I had tried so hard to forget..." I whispered, tears trailing down my cheeks as i cuddled closer to Jonathan for comfort.
"I'm so sorry, Lily." Jonathan told me, and i sighed.
"Its okay, Jonathan. Can we go to sleep, please? I'm really tired." I murmured, and Jonathan nodded, setting me down on the bed and laying beside me, holding me close to him.
I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but i kept picturing the images from my nightmare.
No matter how hard i tried, i couldn't get them out of my mind. I tried, but nothing worked, and i soon found myself frustrated to the point of tears.
"Jonathan?" I asked weakly, and i heard him stir at my side, and then i felt him gently kiss my forehead.
"Lily, are you alright?" Jonathan asked sleepily.
"N-Not really. i can't sleep, i keep picturing images from my nightmare..." I shuddered, and Jonathan kissed my forehead again, pulling me closer to him.
"Hm, I'm not sure that there's really anything i can do to help you, Lils. I'm sorry." Jonathan said, and i frowned, but nodded my head against his chest.
"Alright, Jonathan, thank you anyways." I murmured, cuddling closer to him and closing my eyes again, trying to sleep.
After a moment, i still couldn't sleep, but then a soft tune met my ears. After a second, i realized Jonathan was attempting to soothe me by humming the lullaby 'Mockingbird', which was also known as 'Hush, Little Baby'.
"Good night, Johnny." I murmured, cuddling closer to him.
He didn't respond, as he was still humming 'Mockingbird'. I closed my eyes again, listening to him humming, and i found that sleep came very easily to me.
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| Cillian Murphy | as Adult Jonathan Crane |
| Amy Lee | as Adult Lillian Roshette |