Black Pearl

His last breath.

The next morning with or without Kyungsoo I was going to go to my old apartment. And of course, the whole group decided to come with me. Baek was wearing the leather jacket I picked out for him, and Chanyeol couldn’t tear his eyes away from the boy. Kyungsoo was beside me, eyes vacant, deep in thought.

            When we reached the place I tried the spare key I always kept under the mat that always said ‘Welcome’ but I didn’t even need force to push the door open, because it already was.

            “Kai?” I called out while cautiously stepping inside. Baek, Kyungsoo and Chanyeol all walk in after me and my old apartment is destroyed completely. It looked like someone came in here and trashed everything. I walked over to where I had a picture frame containing a picture of me and Eric; I never did put it away. Eric’s face wasn’t even a face anymore. It was scratched out.

            Kyungsoo took the photo away from me and set it down and looked me in the eyes.

            “He left a note, you should read it…” I looked over Kyungsoo’s shoulder to see a teary eyed Baekhyun and pieces of paper in his hands.

            I walked over, heart racing almost ripping the paper by snatching it away.

            “Lauren, Kyungsoo, whoever is reading this, I’m gone. The one thing I want from you guys is to be happy, I’m so sorry for hurting all of you. I was so stupid and selfish to believe a life without you all would be easy, but I wanted it that way. You guys, especially Lauren wouldn’t even want to look at me but you have to believe me that I am dangerous for you Lauren. I could kill you in a second and not think about it. I can’t live like this anymore, I can’t find a cure, I’ve been trying but I just can’t find anything. Don’t look for me, don’t be sad, be happy, I love you all. I love you all…so…so much.

                        -Kai”

            My hands were trembling; I threw the note down and immediately ran out the door and headed towards our spot. Kyungsoo was calling my name, and I could tell he was following me along with Baekhyun and Chanyeol.

            The dress I was wearing was blowing rapidly in the wind; the wind was also catching the tears that were flying from my eyes. I needed to get to him, I had to.

            I reached the beach, and raced towards the rocks, my lungs felt like they were going to explode. There he was, Kris was in front of him.

            “Kai!” I screamed, my voice going hoarse from the lack of air.

            They both turned and looked at me. Kris was smiling, Kai looked sicker than before; fur was present on his face, his eyes gold.

            “You get away from him!” I yelled. Kris continued to smile as he gripped Kai’s arm and dragged his weak body towards me.

            “You still want this sorry pathetic piece of trash?” Kai looked like he was about to collapse from exhaustion. His eyes empty and glazed, I was sobbing at this point.

            “Don’t go Kai…please. I am begging you. Don’t do this!”

           Kris threw Kai down onto the sand and kicked him hard; he got into a fetal position trying to block the blows. But he wasn’t trying to fight back; he looked like he had completely given up on everything.

            Chanyeol pushed me aside and shoved Kris pretty hard before growling from deep within his throat. While Kris was busy being distracted, I kneeled down next to Kai and moved his hair out of his face and really looked at him. He was trapped between a wolf and a man; he was tearing at the seams of his identity. I could hear his breathing becoming quick and raspy; he was fighting for his life right now.

            “Kyungsoo, Baek, help me…” I cried. They both were by my side within seconds.

           “He’s dying…” While he was lying on the cold sand, fighting for a breath of life; I was praying for an answer. Kyungsoo picked him up and set his head in his lap, Baek began talking to him in a murmur, I couldn’t hear exactly what was being said; but Kai cracked a smile.

            Chanyeol and Kris were still fighting behind us. I reached my hand out and drug my fingertips across the surface of his face that was beginning to show fur.

            “I’m sorry is all I can give you in return for the hell I put you through. Remember, you will always be my black pearl.” His hand, shaking in the process, held mine.

            “Don’t give up just yet.” I managed a small smile, as tears trickled down my face.

            He returned a smile, his eyes going gold and back to the sweet deep brown color I had grown to love in the past. I began remembering when we him and I would just walk around the city, when him and I danced, heavy breaths, and tension. The nights where I would lie in his safe embraces, soft kisses and discussed the world like we could control it all but what I didn’t know is that this man was slipping away each and every second I had him. I would go back and do anything and everything he wanted to do. He was so busy trying to make me happy I believe he forgot about his own happiness.

            “God, it hurts” He sobbed. Baekhyun leaned down and said, “What hurts?”

            “Everything…I’m getting so hot…I feel like I’m going to explode”

            “Shhh. Do you hear the waves just over there? Think about you just floating in the water, the coolness of the sea just washing away all the pain. Okay?”

            He was actually really cold when I thought about it, his hand still holding mine, was freezing. He was going to leave us all soon and I tried so hard to prepare myself for it. He whimpered, and cried, Chanyeol fell beside Baek. Since we were all busy attending to Kai, Chanyeol had apparently beat Kris into submission. His face was bloody; his eyes fading back to brown.

            I leaned down to look Kai in the eyes, and kissed his chapped lips. His body began to jerk and spasm in different ways, Kyungsoo and Baek held onto him, crying in the process.

            “It hurts so b-b-bad…” Kai cried out. I could hear the terror and fear present in his voice. It made my heart hurt so bad, his face was contorted in pain, utter pain. His eyes met mine, and let me tell you seeing someone slip away from earth is nothing beautiful. Once their pupils dilates, and their body ceases from the horrid fight, you get to see them want every ounce of the pain they are feeling to stop, and when their heart finally stops…you’re left with an empty body, a person you used to love very dearly, disappear. I don’t think anything or anyone could have stopped me from crying, I cried until all the tears my body would produce, landed on empty. Everyone wasn’t the same after that, we decided to burn his remains and gathering the ashes and sprinkled them into the ocean. All the pain he had felt was gone now. The pain we all were feeling was just the beginning.

*Okay guys, I know it has been a long while. I’m sorry for this chapter. Honestly I feel like I rushed it too soon, but I felt like it was time. Don’t worry though, it’s going to start being more happier then what this was^ I love you all*