SwEeT MaDnEsS (Watty Awards Winner 2012)

Dedicated to Olga! :D 

"I'm a kiss from hell
A dead star that takes light from the dark..."

- Unknown

Chapter Twenty-NiNe

Yes or no. 

Right and/or wrong.

We're always put in situations where we have to choose, where we have to make those impossible decisions.

After all, life is all about choices. Every single decision you made can affect the path of your life, like when you choose not take an umbrella to work and then it starts pouring just as you walk outside. And there you stand, damp regretting your choice of not taking the umbrella with you. However, these simple decisions are nothing compared to what I was choosing in that moment. I was giving up something really important to me, probably the last thing I'd left after all I'd been through. Some people believed virginity was overrated but to me, it was something big. I wanted my first time to be meaningful, I wanted to be loved and feel loved. Unfortunately for me, that wasn't going to happen.  

Madness...  

He's still had me pinned down on the bed. His strong body was on top of me, pressing me down. He was giving me his signature smirk while his red eyes were glowing with victory. I couldn't believe this monster was just going to take something so precious to me. My eyes watered but I was really trying hard to not start sobbing like a baby. I swallowed.  

"How can I know you will keep your end of the deal?" I asked seriously. Madness leaned closer; his face was a few inches of mine.

"We can make a blood pact," he whispered amused. His cold breath fanned my face.  

"It will be..." I trailed off not enjoying his closeness "just this one time, right?" Madness let out a short laugh.

"Yes, unless you want more," he replied softly. I shuddered at the unwanted images his statement brought to my mind.  

"No, I don't want more," I stated the obvious. Madness' smirk turned into a twisted smile as he grabbed one of my hands and punctures my thumb "Ah!" I grimaced in pain "What are you doing?"

"Blood pact," he pointed out as he punctured his thumb as well. He pressed our thumbs together and closed his eyes, "I swear to feed Dagon, a third level demon until he's experienced enough to do it himself," he chanted this in a very husky serious tone. My thumb was throbbing; Madness opened his eyes, "Your turn,"

"I..." I swallowed trying to get past the lump in my throat, "I swear to give you my virginity and nothing more," an electrifying pull ran down my finger into my arm and went straight into my heart. I jumped a little when the volt reached my heart. Madness smirked.

"It's done," he said satisfied, letting go of my hand. I stared up at him feeling more vulnerable than ever. I could see the lust in his eyes it scared me. I looked away and he took the chance to sniff my neck, "Innocence smells so sweet," his nose made contact with my neck. His skin was extremely cold it made me shiver. His lips brushed my skin and then his tongue darted out licking all the way up to my earlobe. I wanted to push him off me, I wanted to run away but I knew I couldn't, the pact had left me feeling powerless.

"You..." tears were rolling freely down the sides of my face, "You want to... now?" I asked shakily. One of his hands caressed my thigh shamelessly.

"Yes," he whispered huskily in my ear.

"I..." he bit my neck as his hand moved up my thighs to the hem of my shorts. My lower lip was quivering. I could feel his hardness pressing against my thighs. I wanted to scream, to stop him but I knew it was useless. Madness leaned backwards; his avid fingers started unbuttoning me my pajama shirt.  

"Look at me," he ordered. I kept my eyes on the wall. He grabbed my chin roughly forcing me to look into the red sea of his eyes "I told you, you would be mine, didn't I?" his tone was laced with desire. He ripped my shirt opened, exposing my chest. I whimpered as he buried his face back in my neck, savoring it and biting it roughly. My bare breasts were brushing against his cold skin. His hands were soon everywhere, touching me. He slid a finger in the waistband of my shorts. I panicked.

"No..." I muttered, my voice was raspy "Wait," I raised my hands placing them on his chest, trying to push him back a little but he simply grabbed my hands and pinned them above my head. "Wait, please," I begged as he began pulling down my shorts along with my underwear "Please," Madness stared at me.