When We Meet Again

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

SHY

After sending Mike to his room, I immediately went back to the hotel. I don’t know why but my heart is beating so fast as if something bad is going to happen. Well, it is true because when I entered the room, I saw Nate packing up his things and clothes into his bag.

“What are you doing?” I asked him and he jumped surprised that I’m behind him. If the situation was better I would have laughed at him but this is not.

He looked at me and then continued packing, “I’m leaving Shy.”

“What? Why?” I shutter, “Just another day Nate, we’ll tell him about us.”

“What difference does it make, Shy?!!” he yelled. I was so shocked with his outburst. He never yelled at me before. “You love still love him. I know that!” he accused. “That’s the reason why you still can’t tell him about us, because you don’t have the heart to leave him. When I saw you today I’m sure you still love him and you're not going to leave him. I’m not a fool, Shy.”

“What make you think that?!!” I yelled back at him.

He turned his head towards me. His face was flushed due to angry or crying, I can’t really tell, “Because I saw him kissing him, Shy!!!” he roared.

“I did not kiss him!!!” I cried.

“I saw you with my two eyes, Shy. I was there. I thought I wanted to surprise you by picking you up at the hospital but I saw you with him at the garden, talking, laughing and then you kissed. I’m not blind Shy, I can see,” he gritted his teeth trying to stop himself from yelling at me I think.

“I did not kiss him!!” I stressed. “He kissed me but I did not kiss him back!!”

“He kissed you or you kissed him, make no difference!!!” he yelled back again.

“There’s a difference, let me show you!!!” I screamed and pulled him into a kiss but I felt so disappointed when he did not kiss me back. I looked at his stone face with my teary eyes. “Can you felt the difference? That’s how my kiss with Mike was, he kiss me and I did not kiss him back just like you’re doing it to me right now,” I sobbed, “I’ve kissed you but you did not kiss me back,” I shutter, moving and turning away from him.

I didn’t know how long we just stood there without a word. I can’t stop myself from crying. Hurt he didn’t believe me. I remained quiet but I could hear he continued packing.

“I’m sorry Shy,” he finally said after zipping his bag. “But I think it best that I go and let you think wisely about your feelings,” taking his bag and walked towards the door.

I turned and looked at him shockingly. He still wanted to leave and didn’t believe a single word I’ve said. It felt so hurt when someone you love didn’t trust or believe you.

“Go ahead and leave. Make sure you didn’t leave any single things that’s belongs to you because I’m not going to returned it you. If I find any of your things I’m going to throw it away, just like I’m doing it to your love right now, throwing it out from my heart,” I said to him making his stop, “I don’t think I want continue loving someone who didn’t trust or believe me. I think we are over and done Nate.”

He stood at the door a quite a while and without turning to look at me he then said, “If you said so Shy, I hope you will be happy with him,” and walk out of the room without even looking back.

I watched him walking away and I just couldn’t believe it someone who I’ve really love with all my heart just walk away from me because he didn’t trust me. Damn him. He can go to hell. I hate him. Hate him. I gave my heart to him and he broke it to pieces.

I cried all night even after telling myself to stop crying for him. I even called the housekeeping to change the bed sheet and pillows for me so that there’s no smell of Nate on the bed, but it doesn’t help at all. Damn it. I scolded myself. There’s no use crying over a guy who doesn’t trust you. I forced myself up and went immediately to the bathroom. I’m taking a long shower to make myself fresh again. Long shower normally helps me feeling better whenever I felt down. Unfortunately this time it didn’t work, I cried harder when I’m in the shower as the memory of being with Nate still hunt me there. God, I’ve missed him. He just gone for one night and I’ve already missed him. How am I going to live without him forever? Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! I have to be strong. I have to try to forget him! I scolded myself.

I’ve decided not to visit Mike today. I’ve called his father informing him that I’m not coming with reasons that I’m not feeling well. I’ll break off with Mike tomorrow. Well I was thinking, since Nate not around anymore I don’t have to rush breaking off with him but I still wanted to go ahead with it. I don’t love him anyway so I don’t see any point continuing being with him. My heart desired for someone else, someone who unfortunately didn’t trust me or believe me at all.

I’ve also decided not to lock myself inside my hotel room and kept on feeling sorry for myself. I took a stroll drown the street toward the shopping complex. I’m going shopping. Shopping also helps me to forget about things I wanted to forget and at this point I need to get Nate off my mind permanently

I failed miserable because when I looked at the mannequin wearing a man's stripe blue shirt displayed at the window of the shop, my mind immediately went to Nate. Thinking how handsome and dashing he would look in that shirt. Without thinking I went into the shop and bought that shirt. Damn, stupid me. Why did I buy that shirt when I know I’m not going to see him again? We broke off remember.

Still feeling miserable, I decided to have a coffee instead. Maybe while enjoying the coffee and watching people passes by I could forget him. I was standing in line to order my coffee when someone taps on my shoulder. Turning around I was surprised to see who it was.

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A/N : I know this is short... I'll try to update the next chapter by tomorrow... BTW there's only 3 Chapters left to go.... The story will end soon.... sob, sob..... - Sally-