they are supposed to be forever.
there are ups and downs.
there are good days and bad days.
but even if you are fighting, if you love them, as a friend, as a sister... or in another way, you are always going to come to the rescue.
or you hope that you will.
that if they're in need you can come over and pick them up.
and maybe in turn they can save you.
or maybe they already have.
but what happens if they end up with someone you think is wrong for them?
what if you can't bring your self to tell them?
what if you're afraid to loose everything by taking a chance?
okay so I'm a guy and she's a girl- so what? everyone has wondered what's going on! we have been together forever, we don't know any different, it's normal for us, we never needed anyone else, we have other friends but we are here for each other
it may seem weird because we have been friends for so long, most people drift apart and there have been times that I'll admit we hated each other momentarily but, when that happened I felt like I had been stabbed through the heart by myself, how could I hate a person so right for me, that fit to me perfectly?
even walking together we seemed to connect together and it was comfortable.
okay so enough of this mushy stuff!
Hayley has got a boyfriend now and I need to give her space but when everyone is whispering about us, about how now I am missing half of me it strikes something in my brain that asks so many questions!
I know the guy she's with is an okay guy, or at least I hope he is but what if he isn't? what if she gets hurt?
I feel weird, how can me and Danny be apart? its just not natural it's like we were meant for each other, but what if we were to become more? what if?
now I have Conner but he seems different now, we have been going out a month and I can tell he's changed, I feel that something is missing from my heart and I feel that something big is coming but I'm scared to believe, I'm scared to venture out and see if I'm right but I also know that if it's going to happen it will happen soon
ugh, I'm bored with hayley, she's nice and everything but, I just don't feel like we go together any more.
I know that I did something bad but I really didn't realise what I was doing!
still that girl! that girl! she was, well she felt right! she felt like everything Hayley isn't! she seemed to complete me and now that she isn't here I feel that I'm not whole!
but how do I tell Hayley, it will kill her and then it might kill me!
I WON'T BE PULLED UNDER! I AM CONNER DUNVILLE! I WILL OVERCOME THIS I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE ANYTHING FROM HER IF I END IT I END IT, I DON'T CARE FOR HER ANY MORE I WILL RISE ABOVE THIS.
maybe I'm in denial, I don't know all I know is I think its somehow her fault! it makes no sense but its how I feel!
I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE ANYTHING FROM HER!
i dialed her number numbly
hello?- she sounded so innocent
hayley?-my jaw clenched
I hung up and held the phone to my head and closed my eyes, what had I done?
that was the coldest thing that I could have done. the darker side of me was winning
MOVE ON FORGET HER GO GET THAT OTHER GIRL THE ONE! THE ONE WHO YOU CHEATED WITH! THE ONE WHOSE WORTH DUMPING THAT NOBODY FOR!
Danny?- Hayley's voice was shaky, she was sad, shocked, I needed to go get her.
I hung up and rushed out to my Mercedes McLaren Mini SLR convertible. it was a dark blue outside, clear, stars dotted everywhere.
I rushed into the house and flew into her room. she had broken down, I was too slow! ugh! too slow!
I went over to her and hugged her hard, trying not to crush her, she was limp and thin and light. she was so fragile like a porcelain doll, like a tiny princess.
after so long I gritted my teeth and then walked out saying "I'll be right back"
she lifted her head "wait where are you going?" she asked in a small voice
"no. Danny. Don't."
I got in the car and so did she.
all right but she better not try and stop me!
when I got there I banged on the door, HE was there, behind him was a blonde chick, slender, tall. wow. he moved fast.
"you bastard!" I punched him in the face.
we launched into a full fledged fight, he tried to punch me back in the face but I dodged and punched his rib cage, I tried to do a left hook but he caught it then he threw it back and kicked me. I tackled him, getting him onto the ground, I started punching his face again but then he managed to roll us over so that we switched roles, then I tumbled over till I was on top again.