Whispering Thoughts (Poem - The Atty Awards)

We’re friends. Great friends, close friends, you name it,

We’re close knit.

We trust each other. You trust me, I trust you,

It’s what we do.

But there’s a problem that you don’t know of:

For you I harbour a special kind of love.

My life and world revolves around you and your joy,

I realise how deep I’ve fallen, and I can’t help but think, “Oh boy…”

Your heart belongs to her, mine belongs to you,

You won’t believe the pain it’s been through,

But it’s fine as long as you’re here to heal the pain,

Cheering me up, protecting me, being my shelter from the rain.

Just thinking of you makes my heart tumble,

“Why can’t you be mine?” I wistfully mumble.

“Did you say something?”, he turns to me, confused.

I fake a smile. “It’s nothing, never mind,” I reply, my heart bruised.

I wish I could tell you, I wish I could,

But I can’t help but wonder if it’d do more bad than good,

I can’t tell you how I really feel, when she is the one you love,

How it’s not me, but her, that you probably constantly think of.

I look over at you with teary eyes. “I love you,” I quietly sigh,

“What did you say?” he asks, but I turn shy,

I feel my cheeks heat up. “Nothing at all,”

And I feel my built up courage fall.

The girl you love, the girl I don’t know,

There’s nothing I want more than to have my hate for her grow,

But I know she makes you happy, so I can’t bring myself to do it,

She’s the one who got you, and I’m the one who quit.

I’m the one who, upon myself, inflicted a nasty scar,

“Am I not the right one for you?” I sadly ask from afar,

Your confused eyes beg for an answer as you turn to look me,

But I shake my head, as I realise that your eyes will never leave her to focus on me.

You need comforting, you need me there,

I want you happy, I try my absolute best, I swear.

It works, you smile, and then make your way over to me,

Embracing me, getting as close as can be,

“I love you,” you say. My heart skips a beat.

“You’re one of my dearest friends, and so sweet,”

I pretend not to act heartbroken. “I love you too.”

I then whisper: “More than you’ll probably ever know.” It’s true.

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