Watching from a distance

I try to steady my breathing

as tears stream down my face and I feel like death is upon me

because my heart has stopped.

I'm just a shell

of the person you once knew

Why? It's because of you

my heart is now dark; I need you here

Not so far away.....

...even though we barely know each other

even though we've never spoken more than five times at least

...or am I wrong?

I've lost count at how many times I've stared at you

and how many times you're caught me and I looked away

It was only close to the end you finally looked at me

but it was too late...you were already far away from me

....I wasn't even there when you left....

My sweet, I didn't even tell you how I felt about you,

how I loved you,

how thoughts of you consumed my days,

how I'd felt when you spoke to me

when you smiled at me....

...and now it's too late...

....too....late....