When I got to the kitchen I found Violet was sitting on the floor hugging her knees to her chest with her back against the wall. I went over to her and sat down and wrapped her in my arms. "Baby please stop crying" I whispered and cradled her in my arms.
"Are you mad at me?" She whispered and I furrowed my eyebrows. Why would she think that? "No, of course not baby" I answered and she looked up at me and I frowned. I wiped her eyes and she re-adjusted herself on my lap. She was now straddling me and staring at me with her head tilted to the side.
"You aren't?" She sniffed and I smiled sadly.
"No Violet, I'm not mad at you. I'm definitely worried though. I mean what did I do?"
"I'm so sorry, I feel horrible. I shouldn't have yelled at you, I thought you were upset with me and...and I-"
"Shh...I forgive you"
"No, I want to e-explain" she sobbed.
"Let's go to our room"
"But the food"
"Fine, we can talk later"
"Can we just pretend I didn't just breakdown and be a jerk?"
"You weren't a jerk" I murmurred and kissed the top of her head.
"Yes I was" she argued and I pecked her lips then pulled away and brought my lips to her neck. "If you want to keep arguing with me then that would leave to making up and I only know one way to do that so I suggest you cut it out" I whispered and she laughed.
"Everything turns into sex with you, did you know that?"
"Well uh yeah I am the one saying it all"
"Your a jerk" she replied.
"I'm your jerk that you love"
"Yeah I do and I'm really sorry Jesse I-"
"You shouldn't bring it up, it never even happened" I replied and she nodded. She got off my lap and wiped her butt off and I got up and did the same, she had me sitting on the damn floor. Who am I kidding? I would have did anything for her. Especially if I had to make up with her, even though I don't even understand what happen between us this time. I don't really care either. All that mattered was my woman was happy again and we were okay.
Jesse and I took a break since most of the food was done. I went up to my room and Monica came with me. I was still upset with myself for the way I treated Jesse. When we got into the room Monica told me what happened with Jesse and Reba.
Now I felt a thousand times worse. I know she didn't tell em for me to feel bad because in all honesty it was good to know that he took my side. "Monica I should apologize though, I mean I just assumed he was upset with me and that he was going to take her side" I stated.
"Hey it's over and done with, isn't that what he said? To just forget about it?"
"I can't Monica"
"Why not? I mean it's not really your fault. Think of it like this when something happens between you and Reba its like a routine that Jesse takes her side. How were you suppose to know for once he was going to break that routine and take your side? It was okay to assume because your following the routine and to your surprise it changed and well you had already assumed, the damage was done. You can't be upset with yourself because you didn't do anything wrong. Now you just need to ignore your little breakdown and leave it alone. Jesse isn't upset with you and he loves you" she stated.
"I know that"
"Than nothing else matters" she smiled and I nodded. That was true, as long as I had Jesse nothing else mattered at all. I hugged her seeing it did make sense with her little it's a routine speech. I understood it and now I need to get over it and get ready for today. It was Christmas for crying out loud. I needed to go get dressed and look good for my man.
It was now New Year's Eve. Jesse and I were in the basement with the rest of the guys and the couples. Jesse and I have been great as usual and the whole Christmas thing we got over. Reba and I are getting along for once. We went out to lunch together a few days ago. I mean the first hour was so awkward until I blurted out I loved Jesse and she sighed and said he loved me too and she could respect that.