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Autumn Sonata

Autumn Sonata

21st March 2041 (Georgie 10 wks 4 days, Ashtyn 14 wks 3 days, Tahni 13 wks and 4 days, Lexi 11 weeks and 5 days)

Summer's POV

"It still feels like yesterday." I whispered to Matty as I stood wrapped in his arms in front of the fireplace where the angel ornament rests on the mantle piece. Every year it doesn't matter what we are doing, we'll always be here to light her candle. As each year passes, the kids get older and their families get bigger, I always wonder what would have been.

Our little Angel... Autumn Skye Taylor

Who would she look like more? What career choice would she have chosen? Would she be married with children? If she made it, would Matty and I had all of our babies that we've been blessed with? I know the answer to that. Yes, we would have all of them. I love my family and even though I did complain to my husband that three or four babies were enough at the start, I wouldn't change a single damn thing.

"I'll never forget that day baby. I wish that she was here with us everyday." he whispered back softly, his hand reaching out and flicking the lighter to ignite the wick. Once the flame was making a small glow around us, I felt Matty's lips lightly press against my temple and his arms tightened around me. This is our time together, just the two of us reflecting on our little girl. Even though we've moved on from her loss, not a day goes by where I know I don't have a moment where she's in my mind.

"I can't believe it's been thirty years. Saying it out loud like is making me feel very old right now." I giggled lightly as I leaned into my husband and enjoyed having him wrapped around me. Feeling his warmth and his steady breath blowing lightly across the back of my head gives me a sense of calmness, I could stay like this forever. I want to stay like this forever.

"I can easily change that." he purred in my ear and I felt his hands moving south and teased me a little before resting his hands on my hips. He's a naughty boy, it's no wonder our sons are the way they are. All of them are horny, sex crazed and starved Taylor's, I wonder if it's something that he told them during "the talk".

"Babe, you know we can't do that, I'm not risking it." I sighed sadly before I turned around to face him, his hands never once letting me go. I wrapped my arms around his waist and pressed my body into his. I don't know what I would do if anything happened to my hubby, it would absolutely kill me.

"At least I'd die extra happy." he chuckled, but as soon as those words left his mouth, I let go of him and whacked him hard across his arm. I walked over to the window and looked out to the gorgeous orange, yellow and red leaves of the trees shining in the beautiful sunrise, I love this time of the year. A warm tear trickled down my cheek and I wiped it away, silently fearing the worst for my husband, the love of my life. He's my world, my everything and if I lost him, I just don't think I'd be able to function without him. I'd die with him.

"Please don't joke about this babe." I cried and then I felt his warm strong arms wrap around me and he pulled me back into his chest. I breathed in the scent that I've loved now for over thirty years, the smell of my Matty, my hunky man. The feeling of his warm soft lips pressed lightly over my temple as his arms squeezed me tighter.

"I'm scared." I whimpered as I let out an almost strangled cry at the thought of Matty dying. At his last check up the other day, the doctor had ordered a fresh new lot of tests for his heart. An angiogram is the main one, something about wanting to see the flow of the blood through the aorta. All of the tests that he's about to have scare the crap out of me. I don't want them touching his heart but if it keeps him here longer with me.