I quickly scrambled out of the bed and threw some of the clothes from the ground on me. I looked in the mirror to see that I had thrown on a random pair of khaki pants and the black Jack Wills hoodie I gave to Harry how many years ago. Tears came to my eyes as my fingers traced the hemming of the jacket. I felt arms wrap around my waist from behind and lips press a kiss to my neck. I struggled to hold back a moan, that is, until I remembered who it was.
I threw him off of me and turned to face him. Thankfully, he was wearing his white V neck and boxers. I could feel the anger rise in my chest as I stared at his confused expression. He saw the rage in my eyes and bit his lip. Damn it. He looked really sexy doing that.
“Harry. Edward. Styles.” I hissed. “What in the name of baby Jesus have you done!? LOOK WHAT WE DID! I WAS DRUNK. YOU COULD’VE STOPPED THIS! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT.” I yelled at him, my hands balled up into fists as the blood in my body boiled. I stomped over to him and raised my hand to slap him across the face when something stopped me.
Tears welled up in my eyes as the realization hit me like a ton of bricks.
I had just lost my virginity.
To Harry Edward Styles.
That’s when I fell to the ground in tears. I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them, bawling my eyes out into my legs. How could I let this happen? How could he let this happen? This probably meant nothing to him. Just some one night stand that he did with every girl he looked at. I meant nothing to him. That night meant nothing to him. I had just lost my virginity and it meant nothing to him.
I’d broken a very valuable promise to myself. I had always promised myself that I wouldn’t do it until marriage. Harry had respected that when we were together. I guess when we broke up, his respect for me left as well.
“God, Roxy. I’m so sorry. I don’t know what got into me. I thought you liked it. I-I .. you just looked so beautiful last night and you were so sexy on that dance floor.. I just hadn’t seen that side of you and it was intriguing. Over these past two years, you’ve gotten so much more independent and it’s just drawing me in more. I missed you so much. What I did.. what I did with Sam.. was so, so wrong. If I could take it back in a heartbeat, I would. I swear. I still love you. I never stopped loving you. I never will stop loving you. You mean too much to me to let go. The main reason I went to the stupid thing last night was to try and win you back.. but.. this happened. God, I’m so stupid. I’m so sorry, Roxy. I really am. I was drunk.. well, I wasn’t that drunk.. I just.. I couldn’t help myself. I couldn’t … I-“
“Harry. I just lost my virginity to you.” I said between sobs, cutting him off from his useless rant.
Why couldn’t I be mad at him? Why couldn’t I hit him? Why couldn’t I yell at him and make him feel bad for everything he’s done? Why can’t I be mean to him? Most of all, why can’t I hate him?
“Don’t talk… just… hold me..?” I asked, still sobbing.
I didn’t feel any movement come from him which made me feel stupid. Of course, he wouldn’t touch me after that. I meant nothing to h-
“Anything.” He whispered as he crouched down next to me and held me tight to his chest. The embrace made me cry even harder. I wanted this. I wanted him to be mine again. I wanted him. I just didn’t want to get hurt again. He moved me onto his lap where he rubbed circles onto my back and kissed my forehead.
“Sing for me?” I choked out.
“What?” he said sounding completely gob smacked. I couldn’t see his expression since my head was in the crook of his neck but I could imagine it was surprised.
“Sing for me... like old times…”
I looked up into his eyes and could see a small smile play at his lips. “Sure thing, love.” He said before kissing my temple. My head returned to its place, rested on his shoulder as he started to serenade me.
Summer after high school when we first met
|Harry Styles||as Himself|
|Blake Lively||as Roxy Mc'Kartney|
|Selena Gomez||as Gabbey Logans|
|Crystal Reed||as Nina Logans|
|Liam Payne||as Himself|
|Zayn Malik||as Himself|
|Louis Tomlinson||as Himself|
|Niall Horan||as Himself|
|Victoria Justice||as Fatima Collins|
|Eleanor Calder||as Herself|
|Danielle Peazer||as Herself|