Tears of Angel (The Sequel)-In His Point of View

5. Risks

"You can't stay away from her right?" I looked at Kester at the other side of the bed. Then my eyes looked at Angela again. She is sleeping peacefully. I brought her here pagkatapos ng scene sa cemetery. She badly needs medical assistance. Her fever is very high.

"You're aware of what your doing right? Your aware that you are putting your life and hers in danger. John you are risking too much." Tumalikod ako kay Kester. Ayokong makita niya ang emosyon sa mga mata ko. Alam ko kung anong panganib ang maaring harapin niya dahil sa ginagawa ko pero hindi ko siya pwedeng pabayaan lalo na sa lagay niya ngayon.

"I just can't leave her in the cemetery at her state." Ang totoo niyan, hindi ko kayang iwan siya sa kahit anong pagkakataon.

"You can't seem to stay away from her." napalingon ako kay Kester and nakita ko siyang umiiling. I know I am such a disappointment. Napagkasunduan na nahindi na ako dapat lumalapit sa pamilya ko at kay Angela pero hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko.

"JOhann... Baby..." Napatingin kaming dalawa ni Kester sa kanya. Lumapit ako sa kama niya and I saw tears running down her cheeks. Kahit sa pagtulog umiiyak siya. Naikuyom ko ang kamao ko.

I made her suffer so much.

Sobra ko siyang nasaktan. I dried her tears.

"She's having that dream again." Simula nung dinala ko siya dito, she's always having a dream na nagpapaiyak sa kanya. She's mentioning my name and our baby. At halos nakikita ko na ang lalim ng sugat na nilikha ng pagkawala ng anak namin at ang 'pagkamatay' ko.

"Why isn't she awake yet?" It's been 3 days n anatutulog siya. I called the foundation to inform them kung ano ang nangyari sa kanya para hindi mag alala ang mga kasamahan niya.

"Her body calls for it. She's overstressed and her body is tired that it chooses to shut down for a while. But after some rest, she'll be okay. She just caught a fever and a cold. And I believe she's traumatized by some experience as well." Tumingin ng makahulugan sa akin si Kester ng sinabi niya yun. Nag iwas ako ng tingin.

"I believe she's awake now." She slowly opened her eyes and she looked at Kester then at me. Question are written all over her face. Hindi ako makapagsalita.

"Hi! I'm glad you're okay now. I'm Doctor Kester Smith and this guy over here is John. John Summers. He is the one who brought you here, when you've collapsed at the cemetery."  I saw her looked at smiled at Kester. Kahit ang ngiti niya malungkot.

Then she looke at me. She looked at me intently. Nagkatitigan kami. How I love looking at her eyes. How it twinkle everytime she smiles and whenever she laugh, tumatawa din ang mga mata niya. Pero ngayon, all I can see is sadness. Siguro matagal kaming nagtitigan kasi bigla na lang tumikhim si Kester.

She looked away. "Th-Thank YOu... Jo-hn."

"It's nothing. Just get well soon, Angela." I saw her shocked expression. She must have recognize my voice.

Kester might have felt the tension in the room kaya nag excuse na siya para lumabas. Hindi ko nakayanan ang mga tingin niya and to hide my emotions I turned my back at her and walked towards to window.

I took a few deep breaths to calm myself. Gustong gusto ko siyang yakapin. Namimiss ko na siya.

"John, you don't have to guard me 24/7. I'm okay now. You could have your rest. I will be fine." Fine? Fine ba ang tawag niya sa ginagawa niya sa sarili niya? Pinapatay niya ng paunti unti ang sarili niya.

"You could have done better, you know." Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko. Nagagalit ako. Hindi ko alam kung sa kanya ba, sa sarili ko o sa sitwasyon namin dapat ako magalit.

"Excuse me?"