Perfect Nightmare. [Jason McCann]
I'm Jason McCann's girlfriend, I think.
I don't think he loves me, I don't know why I stay. I feel unappreciated most of the time. I know who he is, I know how he is. At times, I hate him. At times, I love him.
He mistreats me. He apologizes.
I think he could be different. At times, I doubt that he can.
I love him too much.
No one knows my situation.
I know that it's wrong. I can do better. In the end, he's Jason McCann, I forget all the pain. I don't want to let him go.
I will never have control of my life.
I know how to act around him. But then I forget.
I threaten to leave, but I never do.
I don't want to stay with him, but then I do.
I forget all he does, I know that I suffer.
But I have hope. Then I loose it.
I'm hopelessly in love whereas I will never be loved in return.
I love Jason McCann but he abuses me....
I need help.
"Sometimes we fight.
Sometimes I cry.
Why don't I just tell him goodbye?
Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't.
Build up the strength to admit that it's wrong.
Sometimes I hate.
Sometimes I love.
Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I wait for him to change.
But it's okay, I've disguised the pain.
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone.
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love.... with this man.
Keep telling myself that it's not worth it.
I already know I don't deserve it.
But if it's for you, I don't mind hurting.
This is my perfect nightmare.
Sometimes I keep my cool.
Sometimes I let him know.
Sometimes I even pack up my bags to walk out the door.
Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't.
Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go.
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone.
Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not.
Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes."
Shontelle - Perfect Nightmare. © All rights reserved.