Perfect Nightmare. [Jason McCann]

I'm Jason McCann's girlfriend, I think.

I don't think he loves me, I don't know why I stay. I feel unappreciated most of the time. I know who he is, I know how he is. At times, I hate him. At times, I love him.

He mistreats me. He apologizes.

I think he could be different. At times, I doubt that he can.

I love him too much.

No one knows my situation.

I know that it's wrong. I can do better. In the end, he's Jason McCann, I forget all the pain. I don't want to let him go.

I will never have control of my life.

I know how to act around him. But then I forget.

I threaten to leave, but I never do.

I don't want to stay with him, but then I do.

I forget all he does, I know that I suffer.

But I have hope. Then I loose it.

I'm hopelessly in love whereas I will never be loved in return.

I love Jason McCann but he abuses me....

I need help.



"Sometimes we fight.

Sometimes I cry.

Why don't I just tell him goodbye?

Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't.

Build up the strength to admit that it's wrong.

Sometimes I hate.

Sometimes I love.

Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't.

Sometimes I wait for him to change.

But it's okay, I've disguised the pain.

And I don't ever wanna leave him alone.

They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love.... with this man.

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it.

I already know I don't deserve it.

But if it's for you, I don't mind hurting.

This is my perfect nightmare.

Sometimes I keep my cool.

Sometimes I let him know.

Sometimes I even pack up my bags to walk out the door.

Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't.

Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go.

But I don't ever wanna leave him alone.

Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not.

Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes."




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