Is it really worth it?

If you can see me,
If you can tell me,
That i am doing my best,
That i'm not just a mess,
Then i will know,
That you care,
That you are still there for me.

Sometimes,
When i am alone,
It feels like everyone,
Turned their back on me,
When in reality,
I turned away,
From them.

I can't help it,
It's too hard for me,
To show myself to you,
To have fun,
When my only thought,
Is i want to go home,
I want to be alone.

I am the only person who,
Know the truth about,
Me and my personality,
Because,
I can't help it,
I can't stop,
When my mouth just closes,
I doesn't open,
Until i am alone,
Then i know that,
I can talk,
With out being judged
For what i say.

This is what i hide from you,
This is why i run from the world,
to protect myself,
Is worth neglecting you.