LIFE WITH HIM <3

FIFTYNINE

FIFTY NINE

Naligo ako ulit, tintry ko na gisingin sarili ko kasi baka natutulog pa din ako. Apparently, gising talaga ako, and andito talaga kami kung san kami nag honey moon.

I wore a red strapless dress na hindi ganun ka fit, syempre, anlaki na kaya ng tummy ko magffit pa ba ako. I didn’t bother wearing heels, masakit sa manas kong paa, and syempre delikado if ever matapilok ako.

Iniisip ko kung tama ba talaga, my mind cant wrap the idea na lahat ng nakikita ko ay totoo. Maybe lahat ng efforts nya dati ay sincere talaga, maybe he did really change for the better.

MAYBE…

And I hope so.

Pag baba ko ng 1st floor andaming rose petals na nakakalat and may trail ng candles papunta sa garden. Nakapatay lahat ng ilaw sa bahay and yung candles lang ang nagsisilbing ilaw ko.

I blinked the happy tears na namumuo sa mata ko, im just so happy right now. Sana hindi maudlot ang saya na nararamdaman ko.

When I finally reached the table, he was wearing a black long sleeves and it really brought out his skin color. Sa tagal naming magkasama sa bahay ngayon ko nalang ulit na appreciate ang kagwapuhan niya. Yung smile niya, hindi ko maabot dahil parang hanggang langit ang kasiyahan niya.

“anong ibig sabihin neto alexis?” I asked innocently, syempre pa keme muna.

He just smiled at me and pulled the chair for me and gestured me to sit. Ngayon ko lang napansin ang mga pagkain na nakahain sa harap ko. Parang papuputukin niya ata ang tiyan ko sa dami ng niluto at binili niya. Yes nagluluto na po si alexis ngayon, for the past few months siya ang muchacha ng bahay dahil hindi ko na kaya ang maglinis and im too tamad for that. Siya din ang chef, electrician, tubero, karpintero, yaya, taga laba, taga plancha at taga linis ng bahay. All in one talaga. I didn’t ask him to do that kasi may time pa na inagaw niya sakin ang walis tambo at siya na mismo ang nagvolunteer maglinis. And after that naging routine na niya ang paglilinis at pagsisilbi sakin.

We ate in silence, tingin tingin paminsan minsan sa isat isa then mapapasmile nalang kami.

“masarap ba? Actually yung ilan diyan binili ko lang kasi hindi ko alamlutuin, tnry ko practisin sa bahay kaso fail, sorry ah I really tried— “ I silenced him with a kiss on the cheek.

He was so nervous na parang gusto ko na tuloy matawa pero it will not help him to be at ease.

“no, actually it was perfect. Thank you alexis.”  I smiled.

He smiled too, yung labas ngipin effect.

“akala ko hindi mo magugustuhan. Im glad you enjoyed everything.” He said.

“ano bang meron at bigla ka nagyaya dito? And surprise pa ha.” I looked around, memories came flooding my mind once again.

Naalala ko yung mga kalokohan naming dito sa bahay na to, yung tawanan at asaran at syempre ang mga firsts…

When I gazed back at him, he was staring at me.

“bakit?”

“I love you.”

Nanlaki mata ko sa sinabi niya. Did he really meant it? O pinapaikot na naman niya ang ulo ko?

Lumapit siya sakin at lumuhod sa harapan ko.

“I really do love you annika. no woman ever made me feel this way. Alam ko I have made a lot of mistakes and I truly regret those. Nasaktan kita pa ulit ulit and I tried to get you out of my life but hindi ko magawa dahil mahal na mahal kita. And now…” he touched my bulging stomach. “ now that im going to be a father, I want us to be a family. Not a fake one but a true and loving family. I promise I will never let you down. just please.. love me again.”

Mas lalo akong nagulat when he pulled out a velvet box from his pocket.

OMG

OH MY GOSH talaga. Hindi ako makahinga, massuffocate na ata ang batang nasa tiyan ko.

“ annika, I promise to never let you go and to love you each and everyday. Will you give me the honor of being your husband again?”

I must look life a fish having her mouth open. Pramis kinikilig ako!!

He had his head down and I can feel the wetness that comes from his eyes.

I don’t really know what to say. Paano ko sisimulan. Can I really trust him again? Will he never leave me again? Will he never hurt me again? Mahal niya ba talaga ako? Andami kong tanong pero lahat ng mga ito, alam ko na ang sagot.

Im just too stubborn to say what I really feel. I don’t want him to see and feel the love I still had for him kaya minsan I try to push him away. But instead of walking away, he just keep moving closer to me. I cant get rid of this man in front of me and he cant get rid of me either. Para kaming magnet na hindi mapaghiwalay.

Andami na naming hardship na pinagdaanan, and some of them almost tear us apart. Ive lost all the confidence in myself because of my love for him, but because I love him, ive regained it all back. I know I couldn’t live without him. Im just too blind to see It all.

I love him. I love alexis and I love the baby we made from our love.

“yes. yes I will marry you.”

I finally answered.

I stood up and hugged him; I missed his scent, his body. I missed everything about him. He hugged me back and I know that this is the start of something new.

** after 100000000 years of waiting. eto na po ang kasunod. :) sorry forthe very VERY long wait.