Do you know how it feels to be alone?
Not just to be by yourself
I mean really alone…desolate
In despair, hurting beyond words
Desperate to feel alive, happy or even content
I feel only a wanting to be
I am aching…I want to scream and yell and cry
I am in so much pain…..my heart has been mangled
It cannot be fixed by prayer or by a doctor
It consumes me and fills me
It overtakes my body, not allowing me a breath
I am struggling with life around me
I have to do something to survive
I turn it into a different kind of pain
One that I can control…that is easier to deal with
For now I am not thinking about anything
I only feel the physical pain
I am still alone
