I’m not saying this is love.
And I’m not saying
That I want you.
I’m not saying that I’m helpless.
But I’m telling you
I need you.
My palms are getting sweaty.
And my heart is
Skipping beats.
I know because our hearts
Were always thumping
Right in sync.
The mistakes are in the past.
But I can’t say
That I forgot.
Because even now I think of you.
And wish we
Hadn’t lost.
I can’t say we didn’t try.
But we could’ve done
Much more.
We were always caught in something else
Not worth
Fighting for.
I’m not saying that I hate you.
‘Cause we know
It isn’t true.
But the future we once had is gone.
The love
We never knew.
I need you here beside me.
As I say my
Final words.
I need to feel my hand in yours.
I’m fading
From this world.
I cannot keep those promises.
That I once made
To you.
I wish we had given our all.
And never said
We’re through.
My heart is twisting at its core.
My hand
Begins to hurt.
I should’ve told you sooner
But I never
Found the words.
I’m telling you I’m sorry.
For the pain I
Will now cause.
Your hand is squeezing tighter.
You anticipate
The loss.
The stuff we thought was gone,
It had come flooding
Back to us.
I’m sorry that it ends like this,
I’m sorry
But it must.
My tears, they stain my cheeks
As I am fighting
Not to go.
But my grip is getting looser
And my heart
Begins to slow.
Your eyes, they pierce my soul.
And then you touch
Your lips to mine.
My body’s getting colder
So I whisper
One last time.
I have one thing left to say
Before I’m flying
With the doves.
I’ll say this is our last goodbye.
I’m saying,
“This is love.”
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** I've decided to dedicate this poem to @DeathNoteNinja becase she won a contest I held a week ago. Her winning poem was, "Rebels, Roads, and Riverbanks." It is a beautiful poem! You all should read it! :D
~Mikaila <|:3
