Silent cry

I want to feel safe

To hide from the pangs of pain

A sorrow too hard to bear

I search the world

Trying to find that comfort

That solace

That shelter

To hide me from my own shadow

A shadow I've grown to loathe

A reminder of the presence of my own self

Yes, I'd step on it if  I could

Strangle it even,

Make it feel the pain I've so long known

Pain inescapable,

Pain that burns my insides

Yes I'd hide away from my own shadow if i could,

A constant reminder of my lonesome presence

In a room filled with nothing but these tears of mine

Tears that could make a stagnant stream flow

Tears that have formed furrows on mine cheeks

Yes I have searched for that solace

To guide me away from all this heartache, but nothing seems to heal this broken heart of mine

Everything and everyone is a constant disappointment

I just want to end it all,

Im hanging by a thread

Shaken by the pain

I wish I could be numb

Invincible to it all

But then again i wouldn't be human

Perhaps that way I'd be immune

Maybe if I was a bird

Id just fly away into the moonlight

A beauty that I have always admired from a distance

Captivated by its ever shining glow from the strongholds of the night

Or perhaps if I was an ant

Living deep inside the earth where nothing or no one could do me harm

Yes, I'd trade places with an ant if I could!

Or perhaps if I was a bee

Gathering nectar from flower to flower

Living in my back garden where the daffodils and roses are in full bloom

Yes, I wish I was part of nature

Careless and free

Away from all the terror ...